Same ol' shit. Different day. Just wondering how differently my life could've been had I been put up for adoption. :idontknow: Ah mean, ma mother clearly hates me. Mainly cuz I never turned out like she'd hope, Y'know, an effeminate bloke support the more unhinged feminist doctrine of women as superior? And, of course, looking like and sharing more personally trait with my dad than my mother or sisters doesnae help matters. But hey, I'm a man. And they don't tend to be as overly emotional as women about things (except when pissed off). Or so I've heard...
Mind you, I inherited her neurotic habit of always thinking the worst, and the low IQ. Her being blonde is the reason for the latter, I suspect. Given how many of her dumb, obvious questions I've had to answer in the last 14 years. :kickingmyself:
But it's great being raised by a woman who's open about her hatred of men and why marriage is failed institution. Equally great being taught to hate myself, and witnessing women incapable of settling an dispute like calm, civilised people. And they wonder why the only male sibling prefers solitude. But hey, I was raised to see the good in eveyone, while those around me took advantage and hurt me. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Turned me into a guy who always feels guilty if I let people down, and who always feels pressured into living up to what other expect of me. But that hardly surprising when egos, feelings and lies are held in higher regard than honesty n' decency in my family. :thumbdown: If yer a women, anyway. Then ye get free pass and don't have take responsibility for anything you did wrong.
Getting fed-up always putting on this front to give the illusion we're yin big happy family, when really we can't stand being around each other. Or at least, I don't enjoy spending time with them. Unless we're out in public where they, or more specifically my mother, can't afford to risk acting how she does at home. :no: Sorry if that's a c*ntish thing to say, but it's true. And sorry being such a downer, today.