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Sad, paranoid and like no one likes me, lonely. A bunch of negative stuff. I wish I was different. Lately I haven't been very happy with myself. My personality I guess? I don't know. Why can't I just be normal? I keep getting really depressed again lately and I don't know what to do about it but it's driving me crazy. I'm on medication, I have a therapist. I'm just so ****ing lonely and it's pathetic. GAhhhhhhh. I wish someone could help me. I want my mom
I'm so tired ::
I should just pop a Benadryl and go to bed early tonight. Don't want to think any more.
When you get to campus try to sign up with any clubs you see that you have interest in. It might be nerve wracking and scary but it'll be a sure way for you to get people around you. On a side note, if I didn't like you I wouldnt care if you listened to me or not, but tonight we saw that wasn't the case lol. So thats one person.
Like absolute sh**. I tried going out tonight, to some activity they were having for the freshmen, maybe meet new people. So much for that. They were playing a game and they had already started, so I just sat there, by myself, just watching. I leave about a half hour later, and I meet my roommate on the way back. She was with the same friends I had hung out with yesterday with her. Instead of inviting me along like they did yesterday, they just ditched me. :/ Or so it seemed that way. I guess they don't even like me. I'm so lonely and paranoid I can't stand it. ::
It's only been a day and I already hate it here. ::
Sorry for whining, I just really needed to vent...
One thing I've learned about people in school is you pretty much have to invite yourself. Or ask if you can come along. I dont think the average teen has the awareness to notice if someone is feeling left out. You can also try out what I suggested to Beatrice in getting involved in clubs. The only reason I dont do it myself is because I dont live on campus and Im a decade older than everyone.