scatmantom said:Ive got this feeling in my stomach. Its the anxious anticipation feeling I know all too well. Its has been constant for the last week, but it is always worse in the evenings b4 i go to bed. Can any1 relate to things getting worse the closer it is to going to bed?
For me it is the opposite, everything seems better in the evening, because finally the day is over and I know I don't have to take any immediate action, plus I can make some good plans for the day after, when of course I will feel a lot better and manage everything in the most rational way... Then the day after comes and it is exactly the same as the day before, which I realize as soon as I wake up. Early morning is definitely the worst time in the day for me, sometimes I feel really sort of annihilated and cannot easily get out of bed. When I finally do, I feel I am stepping once again in my miserable life of failure and it's not very pleasant.
Right now I am neither happy nor unhappy, a condition which I appreciate a lot since for me it is the only alternative to unhappy. In fact I don't remember having ever been "happy", not even during my early childhood.