Chasey
New member
so it's rude of me to post a thread so soon, but I really need help with this. Sorry that it's long.
Starting September, I went to art college for six weeks. I really enjoyed it, but my dad came out of hospital (he was in there for a long time due to his alcoholism) and made me drop out. He enrolled me into an all-boys Catholic sports college, and I’ve been there for a few weeks now.
From the start, I was picked on. This was weird, because I'd never been bullied before by strangers, or people at school. I passed it off as just general teasing because I was the new kid. But, it kept getting worse. The guys are all the aggressive gang-member type, most of them prejudice, stereotypical, and most of all, homophobic.
Rumors started spreading that I'm gay. Really stupid rumors, stuff like I have sex with my brothers, uncles and dad, or that I'm a gay porn star, male escort, or that I hit up on people in the changing rooms and showers after physical sports.
The teachers do absolutely nothing about it. They'll sit there and pretend that nothing's happening, whilst I get ridiculed and laughed at right in front of them. Sometimes, you can even tell that some of them find it funny, and that they believe the rumors are true - they're disgusted at me.
I've been putting up with it, even though it really does hurt. But, on Thursday, I came back to the changing rooms after rugby practice, started getting changed, and this one guy who'd been the focal point of my harassment just started beating me up out of nowhere.
I tried to fight him back, but ended up genuinely helpless; at the end, I had three to five guys beating on me, whilst the rest just watched. Some of them did try to help, but the rest clearly had no intentions of getting them off me, and instead appeared to be amused and praised the guys for jumping me.
Eventually, a few guys seemed to take pity on me and got me up. I know it was stupid and cowardly, but I was too embarrassed, angry and confused; I went home. And I stayed off today. I feel like too much of a failure to go back to college, but every time my brothers or dad looks at me, I feel so damn ashamed. Their son, their brother, got beat up for being homo. I’ve always strived to impress them, but now they just think I’m a letdown.
I feel so pathetic. I can’t believe I let them do that to me, and it hurt. More so emotionally than physically, but yeah, it obviously hurt a lot physically as well. I don’t know how to act on Monday. I don’t know how to make them lay off, either.
Any help is really, really appreciated. I have enough troubles at home, and these guys are really making everything a million times worse for me. I don’t want to get beat up again.
Thank you
Starting September, I went to art college for six weeks. I really enjoyed it, but my dad came out of hospital (he was in there for a long time due to his alcoholism) and made me drop out. He enrolled me into an all-boys Catholic sports college, and I’ve been there for a few weeks now.
From the start, I was picked on. This was weird, because I'd never been bullied before by strangers, or people at school. I passed it off as just general teasing because I was the new kid. But, it kept getting worse. The guys are all the aggressive gang-member type, most of them prejudice, stereotypical, and most of all, homophobic.
Rumors started spreading that I'm gay. Really stupid rumors, stuff like I have sex with my brothers, uncles and dad, or that I'm a gay porn star, male escort, or that I hit up on people in the changing rooms and showers after physical sports.
The teachers do absolutely nothing about it. They'll sit there and pretend that nothing's happening, whilst I get ridiculed and laughed at right in front of them. Sometimes, you can even tell that some of them find it funny, and that they believe the rumors are true - they're disgusted at me.
I've been putting up with it, even though it really does hurt. But, on Thursday, I came back to the changing rooms after rugby practice, started getting changed, and this one guy who'd been the focal point of my harassment just started beating me up out of nowhere.
I tried to fight him back, but ended up genuinely helpless; at the end, I had three to five guys beating on me, whilst the rest just watched. Some of them did try to help, but the rest clearly had no intentions of getting them off me, and instead appeared to be amused and praised the guys for jumping me.
Eventually, a few guys seemed to take pity on me and got me up. I know it was stupid and cowardly, but I was too embarrassed, angry and confused; I went home. And I stayed off today. I feel like too much of a failure to go back to college, but every time my brothers or dad looks at me, I feel so damn ashamed. Their son, their brother, got beat up for being homo. I’ve always strived to impress them, but now they just think I’m a letdown.
I feel so pathetic. I can’t believe I let them do that to me, and it hurt. More so emotionally than physically, but yeah, it obviously hurt a lot physically as well. I don’t know how to act on Monday. I don’t know how to make them lay off, either.
Any help is really, really appreciated. I have enough troubles at home, and these guys are really making everything a million times worse for me. I don’t want to get beat up again.
Thank you
