Secret_Smile
Well-known member
I know there are many threads like this so sorry if this post is repetative. I'm not doing it to intentionally annoy anyone at all.
I've just recently found out about Social Phobia (About 3 days ago to be exact) and was releived to finally be able to try put a name and an explaination to what was going wrong with me. It hasn't been diagnosed by anyone professional but I'm more than 90% sure I have this problem...this is partly why I'm here (and why this may sound repetative with other posts).
I was bullied in secondary school basically from when I first started. I was always a little shy but never to the extent it seems to have gotten too now. I got called alot of names by my peers as well as some physical bullying and the fear got worse over the years. I couldn't speak to anyone, put my hand up in class, walk down a busy corridor without wanting to cry because I thought eveyone was looking at me and that someone was going to do something.
I'm now 17 and in college and my life there in terms of being able to participate in lessons is terrible. Things were okay during the first few weeks there, I tried the 'new place new start' approach but that faded away and I'm back to feeling awful. I can't contribute to class discussions because I'm so scared of making my self look stupid. If any of my teachers even mention speaking aloud I start to panic, I feel sick, go red and feel even more anxious because I think people are looking at me. I've cried many times before and after speaking because I've been so scared. Even when I'm walking down the street, if anyone looks out the window or if people walk past me I hunch up and look down at the floor till I'm sure they've gone or are not looking at me. I can't call people on the phone and I can only answer if they are close family or freinds (Thanks to the wonder of caller I.D I know who's calling and who I know)
The reason I'm posting this is because I don't quite know what my next step should be. I'm terrorfied of the doctor but I'm supposed to be meeting with a councillor in college, this was set up before christmas thoughand I haven't had any notes back but I can't ask. I've shown my parents but they're just as clueless as me in trying to figure out the next step.
I'm really stuck and I don't know what to do about it, I'm not even 100% sure this is Social Anxiety.. Does anyone have any suggestions at all?
thank you for taking time to read this.I appologise for any spelling mistakes.
S xXx
I've just recently found out about Social Phobia (About 3 days ago to be exact) and was releived to finally be able to try put a name and an explaination to what was going wrong with me. It hasn't been diagnosed by anyone professional but I'm more than 90% sure I have this problem...this is partly why I'm here (and why this may sound repetative with other posts).
I was bullied in secondary school basically from when I first started. I was always a little shy but never to the extent it seems to have gotten too now. I got called alot of names by my peers as well as some physical bullying and the fear got worse over the years. I couldn't speak to anyone, put my hand up in class, walk down a busy corridor without wanting to cry because I thought eveyone was looking at me and that someone was going to do something.
I'm now 17 and in college and my life there in terms of being able to participate in lessons is terrible. Things were okay during the first few weeks there, I tried the 'new place new start' approach but that faded away and I'm back to feeling awful. I can't contribute to class discussions because I'm so scared of making my self look stupid. If any of my teachers even mention speaking aloud I start to panic, I feel sick, go red and feel even more anxious because I think people are looking at me. I've cried many times before and after speaking because I've been so scared. Even when I'm walking down the street, if anyone looks out the window or if people walk past me I hunch up and look down at the floor till I'm sure they've gone or are not looking at me. I can't call people on the phone and I can only answer if they are close family or freinds (Thanks to the wonder of caller I.D I know who's calling and who I know)
The reason I'm posting this is because I don't quite know what my next step should be. I'm terrorfied of the doctor but I'm supposed to be meeting with a councillor in college, this was set up before christmas thoughand I haven't had any notes back but I can't ask. I've shown my parents but they're just as clueless as me in trying to figure out the next step.
I'm really stuck and I don't know what to do about it, I'm not even 100% sure this is Social Anxiety.. Does anyone have any suggestions at all?
thank you for taking time to read this.I appologise for any spelling mistakes.
S xXx