ncbiguy
New member
OK, first off, I don't care who judges me, here. I get enough of feeling afraid of that in real life. I've struggled with shyness and social anxiety for most of my life. It's funny, I'm pretty good one-on-one with anyone. It's just groups, public places and social scenarios that stress me.
I'll be 29 years old at the end of this month, and still have hardly had date one. Noone guesses my real age, and I still get carded, every time. I've been told I'm very cute and get more than enough attention from ladies, but I've always been just too shy to act on it.
Thing is I also have strong bisexual "freak" tendencies and long hair. Sometimes I dress in tyedye shirts, other times in all black with a heavy metal t-shirt, or other times in fancy "club" or "dress" suits. You could say I'm a bit weird or eccentric, in some ways. I believe strongly in open sexuality and freedom of expression and freedom from societal hangups that I feel prohibit many from enjoying certain things in life, but to many people, some things about me would be a bit too much. I'm not talking about fucking everything that moves. I have standards, like everyone else.
It's not just about sex. It's about my views, and ideals. I tend to think that a woman who is more conservative than me in bed will tend to be too different in other areas, as well.
It seems like the two social anxiety and sexuality things are almost......I don't know. Conflicting?.......Oxymoronical?.......I don't know what words to use. But, it's something I don't feel like lying about just to meet any old woman, and then saying "Surprise!", later. I feel like as someone with social anxiety, I almost feel like I'm supposed to be more cleancut and what I'd personally consider boring. But, for many of the bisexual sites, I feel out of place because of the social anxiety thing.
The thought of a guy as nervous and shy as me getting a girlfriend alone would be hard enough, but to find one that would still be cool, knowing everything about me, seems HIGHLY unlikely.
Comments? (my profile, if anyone wants to look: http://www.myanxiety.org/johndoe )
I'll be 29 years old at the end of this month, and still have hardly had date one. Noone guesses my real age, and I still get carded, every time. I've been told I'm very cute and get more than enough attention from ladies, but I've always been just too shy to act on it.
Thing is I also have strong bisexual "freak" tendencies and long hair. Sometimes I dress in tyedye shirts, other times in all black with a heavy metal t-shirt, or other times in fancy "club" or "dress" suits. You could say I'm a bit weird or eccentric, in some ways. I believe strongly in open sexuality and freedom of expression and freedom from societal hangups that I feel prohibit many from enjoying certain things in life, but to many people, some things about me would be a bit too much. I'm not talking about fucking everything that moves. I have standards, like everyone else.
It's not just about sex. It's about my views, and ideals. I tend to think that a woman who is more conservative than me in bed will tend to be too different in other areas, as well.
It seems like the two social anxiety and sexuality things are almost......I don't know. Conflicting?.......Oxymoronical?.......I don't know what words to use. But, it's something I don't feel like lying about just to meet any old woman, and then saying "Surprise!", later. I feel like as someone with social anxiety, I almost feel like I'm supposed to be more cleancut and what I'd personally consider boring. But, for many of the bisexual sites, I feel out of place because of the social anxiety thing.
The thought of a guy as nervous and shy as me getting a girlfriend alone would be hard enough, but to find one that would still be cool, knowing everything about me, seems HIGHLY unlikely.
Comments? (my profile, if anyone wants to look: http://www.myanxiety.org/johndoe )