lonelee1
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i feel like i can update on here as if it were facebook, but i'm able to expand on thoughts more. cool.
anyway, even if nobody listens, i think i've solved my own mind. at least that's the feeling today.
it's not apathy or anything. but it's this weird, freeing feeling i've sort of adopted over the last 2 days. i felt it this morning and thankfully it carried on throughout the day. first, sleep is really important. those nights when you're awake ruminating and hating yourself and indulging in the negative thoughts/emotions that get you down.
well i was asleep and this thought came into my head. i suffer from repetitive thoughts. sometimes they're solutions to problems that i can 'say' or 'think' but never really carry out. short phrases run through all day. it's like im perpetually writing an instruction manual to life in my head (someday it will be published, a list of short and pointy phrases) anyway, today the words popped up:
'forget anxiety'. which is different from "let go" of x, y, z, negative emotion or thought and somehow is more useful.
just forget the feelings. you learned how to be anxious, you can unlearn it. not even unlearn, simply forget. don't think to much about it, just refuse to remember what it feels like to feel terrible.
there's some other revelations i've achieved on mindfulness that i might discuss later. it's just a feeling of rising above these dark emotions. and this involves learning to fully commit to not caring about anything else besides our own happiness. forget what others think about you. their thoughts are as immaterial as our own. simply do not care.
anxiety is damaging.
i'd like to expand more and maybe sometime i'll talk about the power of 'intent' and how that applies to making real change. i have to admit that buspar has been helping me more lately. it makes my mind more pliable.
whatever solutions work for you.
anyway, even if nobody listens, i think i've solved my own mind. at least that's the feeling today.
it's not apathy or anything. but it's this weird, freeing feeling i've sort of adopted over the last 2 days. i felt it this morning and thankfully it carried on throughout the day. first, sleep is really important. those nights when you're awake ruminating and hating yourself and indulging in the negative thoughts/emotions that get you down.
well i was asleep and this thought came into my head. i suffer from repetitive thoughts. sometimes they're solutions to problems that i can 'say' or 'think' but never really carry out. short phrases run through all day. it's like im perpetually writing an instruction manual to life in my head (someday it will be published, a list of short and pointy phrases) anyway, today the words popped up:
'forget anxiety'. which is different from "let go" of x, y, z, negative emotion or thought and somehow is more useful.
just forget the feelings. you learned how to be anxious, you can unlearn it. not even unlearn, simply forget. don't think to much about it, just refuse to remember what it feels like to feel terrible.
there's some other revelations i've achieved on mindfulness that i might discuss later. it's just a feeling of rising above these dark emotions. and this involves learning to fully commit to not caring about anything else besides our own happiness. forget what others think about you. their thoughts are as immaterial as our own. simply do not care.
anxiety is damaging.
i'd like to expand more and maybe sometime i'll talk about the power of 'intent' and how that applies to making real change. i have to admit that buspar has been helping me more lately. it makes my mind more pliable.
whatever solutions work for you.
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