Feelin it right now.

[4seasons]

A couple days ago my mom told me some family where coming over for supper, thought nothing of it because i thought i was on my way to recovery. They where coming around 6 and i had work at 6:15 (bit of a relief) so i had to start eating earlier. I'm sitting down eating and 8 people come through front door(i was sitting in a chair at the table very close and facing the front door). It hit me like a ton of bricks, this wave of anxiety which i thought i had under control. So i ate fast and got out of there, im downstairs in my room right now and all i hear is everyone talking and laughing. I hate to admit because im an 18 year guy, but i almost cried, im just so disappointed in myself.

Sorry, i hate making these negative threads but i just had to get the frustration out.

Thanks for reading.

 

[AgentR]

Firstly, who cares if you make negative threads! It better to let your frustration out on here then in real life.

I understand your situation completely. Last Thursday, I had to meet my sister's new boyfriend and I don't like meeting new people but I was feel confident. I was in my sister's kitchen, waiting for him to come and I feel really good about it and then the doorbell rang and a wave of anxiety came over me. When he come in, I must went the colour of a tomato.

Don't feel disappointed, I mean 8 people is a lot and I cracked just with one person. Hang in there.