tooshytosay
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For me anyway I feel that my SA operates at a completely "unconscious" level -
i.e., I don't get all the tell-tale or obvious signs of SA like
- Getting consciously "anxious" before or during a social event
- Blushing / sweating / having panic attacks / shaking
But I know that my SA is "hidden" somewhere deep within me (almost like a ghost controlling me) because:
- I just completely clam up in social situations unless it's with someone I am very, very, very comfortable with.
- I get mind blanks in conversations and I don't know why.
- I want to run away / hide. I don't feel "anxious" - I just want to run away / hide.
- When I speak, my words often come out jumbled up, really quiet / mumbling, not making any sense, or weirdly / inappropriately. Of course I never intended to do that - but the words leave my mouth like that.
The reason I mention this is because so much of what I've read about social anxiety seems to focus on that conscious "anxiety" people feel, or their physical symptoms.
But with me it's not like that. I never really "feel" anxious consciously. Yet I know the anxiety is unconsciously always "there" because I can see how it influences my own behaviour.
Anyone else like this?
i.e., I don't get all the tell-tale or obvious signs of SA like
- Getting consciously "anxious" before or during a social event
- Blushing / sweating / having panic attacks / shaking
But I know that my SA is "hidden" somewhere deep within me (almost like a ghost controlling me) because:
- I just completely clam up in social situations unless it's with someone I am very, very, very comfortable with.
- I get mind blanks in conversations and I don't know why.
- I want to run away / hide. I don't feel "anxious" - I just want to run away / hide.
- When I speak, my words often come out jumbled up, really quiet / mumbling, not making any sense, or weirdly / inappropriately. Of course I never intended to do that - but the words leave my mouth like that.
The reason I mention this is because so much of what I've read about social anxiety seems to focus on that conscious "anxiety" people feel, or their physical symptoms.
But with me it's not like that. I never really "feel" anxious consciously. Yet I know the anxiety is unconsciously always "there" because I can see how it influences my own behaviour.
Anyone else like this?