I experience both. I think I come of as socially awkward when I interact and talk to people. It stems from inexperience, but if I don't make an effort I won't move forward. In fact yesterday, I did something I thought I'd never be able to do: apologize to someone for past actions. I was also in a place where many people hated me. Regardless, I sucked it up and made an effort to socialize. Crazy, right? I could have stayed home and refused to go at all costs, but I forced my butt over. It was painful and embarassing as heck, but I was able to distract myself and maintain composure until I got home and cried my eyes out. WHat this experience taught me is I can still survive after massive loss of reputation and social standing. It's not the end of the world for me.