NothingElseMatters
Well-known member
i really really really wanna change but i can't.Can't.i've tried before and i failed.so many times.every time that i try to do something and commit to it,i dont know,its like me being alone fighting my demons.and there are many of them.and then i fail and i have to actually motivate my self to do something good for me which gets harder and harder every single time.but i cant leave with this feeling anymore.it used to be anxiety.then it was depression because i was feeling anxiety.now its boredom.i am actually feeling bored of my depression.lol.its crazy.go out for a walk?well here comes the other demon.its called hating myself for being jealous for all those little
cute couples who are having a great time and i am not.it's this voice in my head which keeps talking and i am 100 % sure now that its not me,and if i could reach in my head and make it stop without hurting myself i would gladly do it.even now its telling me ''dont post this don't post this you have sp remember,what if sth happens and the world finds out who you are,don't be crazy you can't share feelings!!''i am gonna have to actually say f*** off to myself this time
until that little voice decides that i have to edit my post
cute couples who are having a great time and i am not.it's this voice in my head which keeps talking and i am 100 % sure now that its not me,and if i could reach in my head and make it stop without hurting myself i would gladly do it.even now its telling me ''dont post this don't post this you have sp remember,what if sth happens and the world finds out who you are,don't be crazy you can't share feelings!!''i am gonna have to actually say f*** off to myself this time
until that little voice decides that i have to edit my post