Many are the times i just pretend i dont recognize a person or that i just didnt see it. Its realy horrible, because i know its stupid, but i am always afraid of rejection, so i do it first and the result is often persons get desapointed and sad whith me.
I hate myself for not being able to stop doing it.
Ikeep pushing people away.
The few friends i have been able to make i just cant keep, and the new persons i meet just get bad vibes from me.