Phantasystar4
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Its not so easy to live in an apartment complex alone when you have social phobia. Ever since I left home many years ago I had to change places 3 times. I'm someone who can't go outside by myself very easily. I don't have any friends or a girlfriend. After a while the neighbors start noticing that other than going to work I'm always home. In some apartments the walls were paper thin and I heard my share of "loser" and "poor guy" comments through the walls.
I moved in to a new place about 4 months ago. I took a basement thinking people won't hear me walk over their head. Maybe I can go unnoticed in a big apartment complex. Sadly my upstairs neighbors are the worst. They are a young couple. They keep their boots or shoes on and they have long distance walkathons in their living room everyday. The guy is especially intense when he walks. Ever since I've arrived here its been nothing but BOOM BOOM BOOM till they go to bed at around midnight.
Of course me being an idiot I decided to write to the landlord about it. I asked if it was possible to ask them to be a bit more careful. To at least take off their shoes while inside. I didn't think it was something unreasonable to ask.
...Apparently I was way off. The very next day the couple started kicking the ground and throwing things and they even upgraded their daylong fast walk session to jogging instead. I guess to make a point that they would not stop. The guy seemed especially mad and after that day he always made it a point to hit the floor very hard a couple time.
A month later I was still being jogged over so I had an even worse idea, to make another complaint. I heard the guy being so furious upstairs the next day, banging and walking hard.. It once again changed nothing except making them angrier at me.
I think one of the big problem is that they assume that I'm on welfare and that I don't have a job. That they are paying my living with their taxes. Truth is I've been on a long term sick leave from work. Ever since I moved there I barely ever went outside. So once in a while I can hear them with the name callings
Little by little its driving me insane. Its hard to have so much difficulty going outside because I'm afraid of being judged by people and yet when I'm home (which is all the time) all I can think about are my angry neighbors who think so little of me.
I'm trying to hold on but its been really hard the last month or two. Some days I menage to stay strong and think of ways to not let them get to me. Other days like today I feel so trapped. It feels like I'm being abused by the immature guy upstairs who seem to have a power trip over me since I don't fight back.
I guess I make it too easy for him
I moved in to a new place about 4 months ago. I took a basement thinking people won't hear me walk over their head. Maybe I can go unnoticed in a big apartment complex. Sadly my upstairs neighbors are the worst. They are a young couple. They keep their boots or shoes on and they have long distance walkathons in their living room everyday. The guy is especially intense when he walks. Ever since I've arrived here its been nothing but BOOM BOOM BOOM till they go to bed at around midnight.
Of course me being an idiot I decided to write to the landlord about it. I asked if it was possible to ask them to be a bit more careful. To at least take off their shoes while inside. I didn't think it was something unreasonable to ask.
...Apparently I was way off. The very next day the couple started kicking the ground and throwing things and they even upgraded their daylong fast walk session to jogging instead. I guess to make a point that they would not stop. The guy seemed especially mad and after that day he always made it a point to hit the floor very hard a couple time.
A month later I was still being jogged over so I had an even worse idea, to make another complaint. I heard the guy being so furious upstairs the next day, banging and walking hard.. It once again changed nothing except making them angrier at me.
I think one of the big problem is that they assume that I'm on welfare and that I don't have a job. That they are paying my living with their taxes. Truth is I've been on a long term sick leave from work. Ever since I moved there I barely ever went outside. So once in a while I can hear them with the name callings
Little by little its driving me insane. Its hard to have so much difficulty going outside because I'm afraid of being judged by people and yet when I'm home (which is all the time) all I can think about are my angry neighbors who think so little of me.
I'm trying to hold on but its been really hard the last month or two. Some days I menage to stay strong and think of ways to not let them get to me. Other days like today I feel so trapped. It feels like I'm being abused by the immature guy upstairs who seem to have a power trip over me since I don't fight back.
I guess I make it too easy for him