Let's see...
Done absolutely eff all in the last 2 months, except sit on my arse, moping and wonder why things turned out as they have. Oh, and quietly listened from my bedroom as these angry, and at times comical, arguments kick-off downstairs.
Spent the last 2 weeks trying to get a program to work on my laptop, but Windows 10 was making that an issue. So I restore it to the previous operating system (Windows 8) and now everything seems to be working.
Me, my mother and oldest sister had an impromptu
"family therapy session" yesterday, as the oldest drove my mum up to our older sister's house. Just going off on the middle child, and how ungrateful she has become. Cuz my mother had an massive argument with her over the phone that morning, which was the first time in a long time I'd heard my mother swearing. Anyway, this wee session continued after dropping our mum off, as my oldest sister and I went to collect my youngest niece's birthday cake. And when asked if she - the older sister - is self-aware enough to realise how she is perceived by us, her family, I said...
"Ah seriously don't know if she know what that is. Ah mean, d'ye argue about a missing portion of takeaway fried rice if yer self-aware?" :question:
Also, I'm not sure, but I don't think I'm no longer perceived as the
"tense, angry, intimidating" sibling anymore.
And, over the last few days, I went back and listened to some of the songs I'd wrote - just instrumentals - and realised most of them are a year old... from that prolific period between April to July 2017. When I seemed to be at my most creative, and ideas were turning into songs without me even realising. And, not to put a downer on all that, but a year on... it's difficult to slip back into that when other things are getting in the way. :sad: :kickingmyself: