Anonymous
Well-known member
Hi All,
I happened to stumble across this site late last night, I was feeling really down and I’m really glad I found it.
It’s comforting to know I am not alone and there are people going through the same problems as myself. I can relate to a lot of people on here and one thing I would like to say is that the people on here should give themselves a pat on the back, they are some of the most caring and supportive people in the world.
I’m 23 and feel miles away from people my own age, although I getting help I feel trapped and isolated from the rest of the world, I am merely existing, I have few friends and I keep myself to myself and I don’t venture out unless I have to.
I always hated school and always looked forward to going home. Home was a comfort zone where you felt safe but at 23 it feels comfortable no longer. At school I always felt I was different and didn’t fit in, you tend to drift apart in your own little world willing the time to pass by so you could go home.
At school I had a period where I would just not go, I was unable to cope with situations and I saw a doctor, they put the difficulties down to school phobia, they slowly reintroduced me back into school and left it at that. I suppose I’m regretting the fact that nothing was done then.
At college a couple of friends that I did have asked if I would go out but I always made an excuse had something to do! You know what I mean always making excuses to get out of a situation you didn’t want to be in, I have always hated going out and have always felt awkward in any form of social situations.
I have always felt I was content with being on my own but in reality I was covering the fact and hiding the fact that I was deeply unhappy, everyday feels the same as the last and this year feels the same as the year before – unhappiness. I suppose nothing has changed since my problems at school and while people my own age have moved on I have felt stuck and have been unable to move on.
It’s the feeling of isolation that gets me down and depressed and it wears you down you get a feeling of helplessness. I have always taken the easy way out but now I feel it’s about time to fight and combat these problems, which are holding me back.
I have reached an age where I feel something has to be done and that you have to forget the past because you can’t change it and move on.
In my opinion the most important thing is you have to accept yourself for who you are and only then can I think you can move on. This is what I’m trying to come to terms with.
I have always felt that I’m not a sociable person and I didn’t want to be sociable but one thing I am beginning to realise is that we do need people around us, for me it’s the feeling of isolation that I feel is becoming more of a problem than it could be facing social situations. The problem I feel with SP is we are facing the problems on our own where as everyday people who have problems let people into their lives. As the saying goes a problem shared is a problem halved.
I think people take these things that I find a struggle with for granted, going out in the world and facing our fears is tough.
At home I feel isolated from the rest of the world and it’s this feeling of isolation that gets me down and depressed. I always felt that I liked being on my own but the truth is I hate it. I want to be happy, enable to enjoy life, I would like a girlfriend and for this to happen I need to change. I realise this will take time but its getting the courage to make these necessary changes.
At the moment although I am receiving help I feel my progress has reached plateau.
I apologies for the length of this post but I do enjoy writing I feel I can express myself better than talking.
I wish everybody on here all the best,
I happened to stumble across this site late last night, I was feeling really down and I’m really glad I found it.
It’s comforting to know I am not alone and there are people going through the same problems as myself. I can relate to a lot of people on here and one thing I would like to say is that the people on here should give themselves a pat on the back, they are some of the most caring and supportive people in the world.
I’m 23 and feel miles away from people my own age, although I getting help I feel trapped and isolated from the rest of the world, I am merely existing, I have few friends and I keep myself to myself and I don’t venture out unless I have to.
I always hated school and always looked forward to going home. Home was a comfort zone where you felt safe but at 23 it feels comfortable no longer. At school I always felt I was different and didn’t fit in, you tend to drift apart in your own little world willing the time to pass by so you could go home.
At school I had a period where I would just not go, I was unable to cope with situations and I saw a doctor, they put the difficulties down to school phobia, they slowly reintroduced me back into school and left it at that. I suppose I’m regretting the fact that nothing was done then.
At college a couple of friends that I did have asked if I would go out but I always made an excuse had something to do! You know what I mean always making excuses to get out of a situation you didn’t want to be in, I have always hated going out and have always felt awkward in any form of social situations.
I have always felt I was content with being on my own but in reality I was covering the fact and hiding the fact that I was deeply unhappy, everyday feels the same as the last and this year feels the same as the year before – unhappiness. I suppose nothing has changed since my problems at school and while people my own age have moved on I have felt stuck and have been unable to move on.
It’s the feeling of isolation that gets me down and depressed and it wears you down you get a feeling of helplessness. I have always taken the easy way out but now I feel it’s about time to fight and combat these problems, which are holding me back.
I have reached an age where I feel something has to be done and that you have to forget the past because you can’t change it and move on.
In my opinion the most important thing is you have to accept yourself for who you are and only then can I think you can move on. This is what I’m trying to come to terms with.
I have always felt that I’m not a sociable person and I didn’t want to be sociable but one thing I am beginning to realise is that we do need people around us, for me it’s the feeling of isolation that I feel is becoming more of a problem than it could be facing social situations. The problem I feel with SP is we are facing the problems on our own where as everyday people who have problems let people into their lives. As the saying goes a problem shared is a problem halved.
I think people take these things that I find a struggle with for granted, going out in the world and facing our fears is tough.
At home I feel isolated from the rest of the world and it’s this feeling of isolation that gets me down and depressed. I always felt that I liked being on my own but the truth is I hate it. I want to be happy, enable to enjoy life, I would like a girlfriend and for this to happen I need to change. I realise this will take time but its getting the courage to make these necessary changes.
At the moment although I am receiving help I feel my progress has reached plateau.
I apologies for the length of this post but I do enjoy writing I feel I can express myself better than talking.
I wish everybody on here all the best,