LeeAnne
Active member
I am having some problems with social phobia. I would say I have had problems with social phobia for a long time, but lately it feels worse, and like it dominates my life.
I went to the cafe today and couldn't sit in front of people. I got scared. I can rationally tell myself no one is looking at me but this feeling takes hold and feels like I am stuck, and can't move. I am afraid to move in case they "see something wrong."
I turn away from the crowd and immediately relax. I can't make eye contact with the waitress. I can't think straight. I feel very strange.
I'm ok with friends, and people I know but I am still really skittish in a crowd.
I hate psychiatry in their "treatment."
I have had the most ridiculous experiences with them.
I once was depressed and mistaken for being drunk. I had no advocate with me, so a social worker lied to me, and had me placed in a locked down re-hab facility.
I basically had to fend off doctors following me around accusing me of reeking of alcohol. They tossed me out after 6 days of being there. I was told I was "maybe bipolar" and was put on a typical anti-psychotic usually used to treat schizophrenia, Paxil and Depakote. I couldn't even see straight and could barely get out of bed.
The one other psychiatrist I had would all too willingly dole out anti-psychotics first without trying milder medications for anxiety. I had to really press for proper treatment. Alot of doctors don't think that you actually suffer even if you don't have a big label like bipolar. I did try the antipsychotics but only very briefly. The side effects were totally unhelpful and made me worse. It took me 6 months of trying to convince her to get me on a waiting list into CBT. In that time frame she labeled me bipolar, and unsuccessfully tried to get me on lithium. She then admitted I had no real symptoms of bipolar, and just wanted to see what lithium would do. I then convinced her to send me to CBT- which she kept insisting I won't get, and said I should just take pills.
I sometimes think my social phobia is a normal response to the ****ed up society around me.
I went to the cafe today and couldn't sit in front of people. I got scared. I can rationally tell myself no one is looking at me but this feeling takes hold and feels like I am stuck, and can't move. I am afraid to move in case they "see something wrong."
I turn away from the crowd and immediately relax. I can't make eye contact with the waitress. I can't think straight. I feel very strange.
I'm ok with friends, and people I know but I am still really skittish in a crowd.
I hate psychiatry in their "treatment."
I have had the most ridiculous experiences with them.
I once was depressed and mistaken for being drunk. I had no advocate with me, so a social worker lied to me, and had me placed in a locked down re-hab facility.
I basically had to fend off doctors following me around accusing me of reeking of alcohol. They tossed me out after 6 days of being there. I was told I was "maybe bipolar" and was put on a typical anti-psychotic usually used to treat schizophrenia, Paxil and Depakote. I couldn't even see straight and could barely get out of bed.
The one other psychiatrist I had would all too willingly dole out anti-psychotics first without trying milder medications for anxiety. I had to really press for proper treatment. Alot of doctors don't think that you actually suffer even if you don't have a big label like bipolar. I did try the antipsychotics but only very briefly. The side effects were totally unhelpful and made me worse. It took me 6 months of trying to convince her to get me on a waiting list into CBT. In that time frame she labeled me bipolar, and unsuccessfully tried to get me on lithium. She then admitted I had no real symptoms of bipolar, and just wanted to see what lithium would do. I then convinced her to send me to CBT- which she kept insisting I won't get, and said I should just take pills.
I sometimes think my social phobia is a normal response to the ****ed up society around me.
