How are you feeling?

[theslowesthand]

Restless as faack. So i'm getting pissed & rocking-out to van halen. :bigsmile: And indulging in feeling sad about the childhood i could (maybe) have had, but didn't. :sad: You only get one childhood/youthhood, and if you faack it up, then that's it, no second chances/attempts are possible. I wish i knew that back then. I WONDER if say if i reach 60, i'll think the same about now (45)???. I feel about as hopeless as i did as a child/youth, but it's just more based on fact.
Should've got into this sh*t as a child, when it came out. I had no idea about their awesome catalogue, aside from the occasional VH single on the radio.
Should've got into the grog as a child as well, as i needed SOMETHING back then! (but had virtually "nothing" in terms of emotional support for my issues).
Thisweat, is wet!

 

[BlueDays]

Restless as faack. So i'm getting pissed & rocking-out to van halen. :bigsmile: And indulging in feeling sad about the childhood i could (maybe) have had, but didn't. :sad: You only get one childhood/youthhood, and if you faack it up, then that's it, no second chances/attempts are possible. I wish i knew that back then. I WONDER if say if i reach 60, i'll think the same about now (45)???. I feel about as hopeless as i did as a child/youth, but it's just more based on fact.
Should've got into this sh*t as a child, when it came out. I had no idea about their awesome catalogue, aside from the occasional VH single on the radio.
Should've got into the grog as a child as well, as i needed SOMETHING back then! (but had virtually "nothing" in terms of emotional support for my issues).
Thisweat, is wet!

Whoa, I was having similar thoughts to yours just a few months ago!
I was thinking that if only I knew what I know now, back in my late teens....OMG, the things I would have done differently! :kickingmyself:

Such wasted potential, of a career I could have had , if only I did certain things back in my late teens. What a waste!


And then I was thinking what should I be doing now, so that I don't think when I get to my late 60's & 70's........"damn I wish I could go back to my 40's and do this, and that, and why didn't I do this at that time?, damn!"

I can just picture myself doing some gardening in my 60's, wishing I could go back to 2017. :bigsmile:

 

[Graeme1988]

Like I haven't, and don't really huv, a purpose in life. :sad:

 

[defiance]

Like I haven't, and don't really huv, a purpose in life. :sad:

Me too. I feel the exact same way. I am just a burden and nothing more. :crying:

 

[AtTheGates]

was feeling depressed earlier but then remembered a quote from Dragon Age: "The lowest and the most lost may still find their way"

 

[theslowesthand]

Like I haven't, and don't really huv, a purpose in life. :sad:

Me too. I feel the exact same way. I am just a burden and nothing more. :crying:

Same here, i'm sad to say. Haven't had "purpose" or "dreams" in many years now.

 

[theslowesthand]

Just KNOW i'm gonna do f@@ck-all today. Ahhhh, happy happy joy joy .. another fantastic normal day. :sarcastic: :kickingmyself:

Just killing time, listening to music, today. It's a "live for the now" day. I find that a hard thing to do, generally. So used to working on projects, that i get bored/restless when i have none (& feel i'm wasting time). Have listened to music i haven't listened to in years (eg sade, fine young cannibals, INXS (now) - some good 80s music). And a couple new heavy metal albums. So not all is lost today. :thumbup:
Also: doobie brothers, daryl hall & john oates (now).

 

[grapevine]

Toothache. aching away.

Home for once. Tonight I am in my bed and its always a weird lonely feeling being home. Because Im always rushing and in a time limit and never have the time to be in my own home and do my thing. When I finally get that chance i get teary and feel deprived. One reason being for all my effort for my partner - for me to over do myself to be with him in his home all the time- I guess I want something in return just as much as I put in. And when Im home - its a reflection of that and how much Ive given myself up and lost myself and my self respect in order to please.

 

[FountainandFairfax]

Optimistic.

At long last, I'm a man with a plan.

 

[AtTheGates]

I was watching this documentary earlier and i really like the quote near the beginning: " I dont care what people say because people always SAY"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DWayhJlW_LU

 

[Graeme1988]

Me too. I feel the exact same way. I am just a burden and nothing more.

Yep! That's pretty much me, anaw. :sad:

Same here, i'm sad to say. Haven't had "purpose" or "dreams" in many years now.

My sister's trying to convince me that I have, with those recent instrumental music compositions I've done. But am no as sure. :question: :idontknow: More a hobby than a "purpose", really. And ah hardly dreamt o' gittin' famous cuz o' them, either. F**k that! :thumbdown:

 

[BlueDays]

Optimistic.

At long last, I'm a man with a plan.

That sounds promising Fountain. :thumbup:
What does your "plan" have to do with? :question:



I am feeling hopeless. I wake up with a written list of all that I need to get done for that day. However by mid-morning I am already behind and hating myself for it.
Everyday the same, rinse and repeat..... :crying:
Can't remember the last day that I woke up and honestly had nothing written on my "To Do Today" list.

 

[theslowesthand]

Crazy-restless. Classical music wasn't cutting it, so changed to a brain audio, which kinda worked for about 1/2hr, but then i needed more more, so now am playing heavy metal. Oh, and drinking - feel bit less nervy/restless after that quick glass. Playing Electric Wizard (psychedelic metal); good faacking shit. :thumbup:

 

[AtTheGates]

I can't stand how as an american you're expected to condone and except EVERYTHING that comes into this country out of the fear that someone might think you're a bigot or racist of some kind ...I mean like EVERY single outside cultural influence is expected to just become part of american culture and everyone just agrees with it no matter how f**ked up it is.

I hate how people are so hung up on race in america...as if skin color matters even the slightest bit. I literally could care less what color someone is....the REAL issue should be the problem of opposing cultural values in this country.

we have some absolute GARBAGE flooding into this country when it comes to cultural values and even citizens. (SOME..not ALL). I'm not saying the united states should be "perfect" nor am I saying IM perfect but imagine you're on a boat thats sinking . obviously you'd want to find the source of the water coming in, plug the leak, and then deal with the mess so the whole boat doesnt sink. get what I mean?




I'm just sick of always having to keep my mouth shut about certain things . I should be able to speak up for what I believe in. idk why its so unacceptable to want this country to have some kind of real identity as opposed to being a giant patchwork of different cultural values that all contradict each other. the thought that there are more than a FEW people in this country who want sharia law to become commonplace really just makes me sick....too many people are basically like "well america is about freedom...so....anything goes" ..theres a LIMIT to freedom..you can't just take advantage of it.

im not going to be one of those people who just lays down and watches american culture continue to be diluted with garbage. I'm going to at least speak up about it.


I'm in a really bad mood right now after reading another article about that ISIS sleeper cell who joined the U.S. army and provided the islamic state with military documents...and dont even get me STARTED on Linda Sarsour.:veryangry:

 

[GraybeardGhost]

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I'm going to hire someone to help dig me out of this hole I'm in. I've even been taking some steps to prepare. But you know what? It's never going to happen. Good things never do.

I need sleep.

 

[AtTheGates]

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I'm going to hire someone to help dig me out of this hole I'm in. I've even been taking some steps to prepare. But you know what? It's never going to happen. Good things never do.

I need sleep.

dont give up.

that reminds me of a good quote: "All human wisdom is contained in these two words--Wait and Hope."

 

[theslowesthand]

Been having days of relentless rain & wind, & icy-cold temperatures. Now suddenly the temp's up 10 degrees - like its faackin autumn! (hey, i'm not complaining!)

 

[theslowesthand]

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I'm going to hire someone to help dig me out of this hole I'm in. I've even been taking some steps to prepare. But you know what? It's never going to happen. Good things never do.

I need sleep.

I fully agree.

 

[theslowesthand]

Today i've been getting hits from the "song"
But i really think i need a hit from a bong
...
(PiP, Poetry in Progress ... <SUSPENDED>)

 

[Kiwong]

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I'm going to hire someone to help dig me out of this hole I'm in. I've even been taking some steps to prepare. But you know what? It's never going to happen. Good things never do.

I need sleep.

Is there any help you can get through organisations that help people in need? Organisations that have people who are sympathetic and used to helping out?