milo2020
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I was a very insecure person, during my college years I used to feel moody at times, the torment from others and anxiety got to me, I had a vision that everyone from school and town thought I was a weirdo.
I'm getting intrusive thoughts of how I used to snub some people or act like I don't know them, out of shame, not that I was higher than them, like these girls who one or two in their group used to call me a freak or complain they had to sit next to me in class when being disruptive. Not all of them were like that, but I did, and I know it's 11 years ago, when I wad in my late teens and meant to be growing up, my intrusive thoughts are back, and now I feel guilty and bad about it. Why I was like that, I don't know...I couldn't make eye contact and acted like a snobbish **** and acted the way some people would act to me....
That would cause them to probably feel offended I think, or think I'm so full of myself, or feel I hate them, when I don't really.
I do say hi to some of them now and smile, and they smile back, others never look at me anymore.
I feel bad about it, maybe some day they might mention it to me, I don't know...
I'm getting intrusive thoughts of how I used to snub some people or act like I don't know them, out of shame, not that I was higher than them, like these girls who one or two in their group used to call me a freak or complain they had to sit next to me in class when being disruptive. Not all of them were like that, but I did, and I know it's 11 years ago, when I wad in my late teens and meant to be growing up, my intrusive thoughts are back, and now I feel guilty and bad about it. Why I was like that, I don't know...I couldn't make eye contact and acted like a snobbish **** and acted the way some people would act to me....
That would cause them to probably feel offended I think, or think I'm so full of myself, or feel I hate them, when I don't really.
I do say hi to some of them now and smile, and they smile back, others never look at me anymore.
I feel bad about it, maybe some day they might mention it to me, I don't know...