dannyboy65
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I am now becoming the real me and I have strong morals and am very caring. I go out of my way for others and I always do the morally right thing. It's just no matter how I look at it im still guilt ridden about my past. For years I was a drug abuser and was always high. I'd pop pills and smoke a lot. I'd also drink to puking point.
On top of that I was a thief. I wouldn't steal anything big but I would steal things like cigarettes, loose change, sometimes small things of value or a few bills of cash. I still wish I could give it all back but I can't.
I would also hurt people emotionally and physically. I would black out and hurt these people. It was so bad that I one time jumped someone who did not deserve it and I really hurt him. What I feel even more guilty about is hurting an ex girlfriend so bad emotionally she tried to commit suicide. But the worst by far is when my ex girlfriend scared me and I slammed her against the wall and after that she always feared me.
I was a good liar and very charismatic. If I was in trouble I always found a way to get off easily. Be it at school after a fight or saying something wrong to a girl. I always had words to fix it. I abused it though in lying about my money that I "made" or by saying I wasn't high or drunk. I lied to my parents so much that it took them 6 years for them to even give me some trust.
But I really am not that guy anymore. The worst thing I do now is have one beer but I guess I wrote this as a confession and a way to get it off my chest. I know it's the past but all the guilt will always be on my shoulders.
On top of that I was a thief. I wouldn't steal anything big but I would steal things like cigarettes, loose change, sometimes small things of value or a few bills of cash. I still wish I could give it all back but I can't.
I would also hurt people emotionally and physically. I would black out and hurt these people. It was so bad that I one time jumped someone who did not deserve it and I really hurt him. What I feel even more guilty about is hurting an ex girlfriend so bad emotionally she tried to commit suicide. But the worst by far is when my ex girlfriend scared me and I slammed her against the wall and after that she always feared me.
I was a good liar and very charismatic. If I was in trouble I always found a way to get off easily. Be it at school after a fight or saying something wrong to a girl. I always had words to fix it. I abused it though in lying about my money that I "made" or by saying I wasn't high or drunk. I lied to my parents so much that it took them 6 years for them to even give me some trust.
But I really am not that guy anymore. The worst thing I do now is have one beer but I guess I wrote this as a confession and a way to get it off my chest. I know it's the past but all the guilt will always be on my shoulders.