Steiner
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That is what it feels like to me. Like nothing is real anymore and that I am living in a permanent dream. Nothing I do matters because it isn't real. I can't feel anything I touch and overall my emotions have been heavily dulled. Lately when I go out with my parents since usually I can't go out alone. I used to have an intense anxious feeling but now I just feel nothing. It's all clouded and numb. I probably can't go out alone but I feel unresponsive and slow like my brain decided to numb itself permanently so I wouldn't have to feel it anymore. Not just anxiety but overall everything. It's like controlling a rag doll from the inside.
Even physically everything is dull.
I read into it and I believe what I am feeling is like a form of derealization and is also related to exposure therapy perhaps. Though is it supposed to feel like this. Is to be better from anxiety mean to kill off everything inside.
Overall I can say my anxiety has been slightly better, still bad, but better. Not really up to par with how I should be. Not at all. I feel like my problem is becoming less and less about anxiety and more about depression.
Even physically everything is dull.
I read into it and I believe what I am feeling is like a form of derealization and is also related to exposure therapy perhaps. Though is it supposed to feel like this. Is to be better from anxiety mean to kill off everything inside.
Overall I can say my anxiety has been slightly better, still bad, but better. Not really up to par with how I should be. Not at all. I feel like my problem is becoming less and less about anxiety and more about depression.