I'm glad you're all commenting on this!
It never came to mind that I moved to a new school at 13. I was put in an empty seat, next to my new mate David. We've never been the best of friends. He had responsibility from our English teacher to 'look after me'. It was a career cornerstone, when I was good with all mates 4 to 13. I think it ruffles feathers. Really got on with many people there, once you have things in common, bringing all knowledge from the last place. I could see I was way ahead at Latin than others, and the teacher had trouble teaching me, as they were on a previous stage! Live is either about the subject - what you know, and can do, but then how you are with others.
Fitting in didn't seem impossible. Looking back, I regret moving school and wish I stated where I was. I can't remember any bullying, but possibly - in the locker room. The bigger, best, confident. I always reacted by not responding. I think it portrays either shyness, tiredness, or, the way I am now, far too outspoken and angry! Some youths on the canal side as I was going home, stared at me, as said "take a chair"' drinking beers. Age gap is extremely too much for me. Generally, I say nothing - just a smile or wink, and then ignorance.
Even meeting a stranger in their thirties like me is awkward.
I need to fix this in an office, to have any hope.
MOST PEOPLE are just friendly with anyone. I used to be. Agoraphobia is not about being ouside. I love that, but I can't handle people.
SIMPLE: grow up with siblings. all fine. Never had 'em. Now livin' alone.
I'd do anything to get out of my situation.
BEST OF LUCK TO ALL