Intro:
I am a programmer/computer engineer.
[10-27-11]
I'm 20, almost 21.
I live in California.
I am clingy by nature (because I grew up as the youngest in a family of 9 (inclusive)), but I pretend not to be because I realized how irritating most people find it.
I pretend to be the person I want to become so that my mind and body make it a default, and I get to where I need to be.
I'm tall, dark, and big nosed
I'm waiting until this community fully understands and accepts my personality and traits before I post a picture of myself. I posted 2 up, but then quickly took them down after realizing I don't want people judging me based on a picture.
The circumference of my head divided by the length of my smallest finger is roughly 11 inches.
I think I may have weirded out MaliceInWickedland with my request for coffee. I think she's thinking that I'm trying to start something, and she would be right. But I wouldn't know what that something is until after the first cup of coffee. lol
I used to live in 4chan, but then I grew up.
4walled.org is my goto place for wallpapers.
I used to think "wow I have great ideas, if I had the money, I certainly have enough time to make something great" now I think "wow I have money, if I had time, I would certainly make something great"
I've read every single comic at xkcd.net and I'm following the ones at smbc-comics.com
I've only ever had 1 relationship that I would call a relationship. I ended it, because I realized that I wasn't truly connecting with her. My "pretend to be who I want" couldn't shape me enough to where I'd be compatible with her in terms of the states of mind.
I've only ever had sex once.
I find SPW pretty cozy, although I'm not sure how cozy SPW is with me
There are at least 2 things I want to do before I die: Dig underground rooms with tunnels interconnecting them (and ventilation), and writing a computer program that can simulate a conscious being as close as possible.
Every time I see MrJones' avatar I think of this: hxxp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r05XDOFUsQw (replace the x's with t's)
I'm always waiting for somebody to say "nobody cares" to anything I say, so I don't talk as much as I used to. The result was that I slowly became antisocial.
I usually develop a crush on any girl that shows me attention, even if I don't say so in words (that would just be weird). I attribute this to my clingy core personality coupled with my antisocial tendencies.
I'm spilling my guts in the hopes that someone finds it interesting and I'll make a new friend. But I'll probably call myself stupid when I see this again tomorrow... lol
For the passed week, I've been sitting on a tree stump for about an hour every day watching people walk by, hoping someone will want to stop by for a chat. So far, no such luck. I'll post a picture of the stump I think.
I'm really social and friendly with people I already know, but due to the variety of personalities that any stranger can have, I'm never sure what approach to take, and so I never talk to anyone that I don't know unless I'm required to (then I wing it)
I will update with more pertinent information as it comes out of the back of my mind. In the mean time feel free to ask questions that are befitting a stranger.