Hi Friends
Can any one kindly help me with my problem. I am suffering from OCD problem, from past 2years. well its becoming much day by day.
If any one does jokes on me, i take it seriously. I am a software engineer. i have lot of stress. in my office, many teams are there, and i belong to a team WAP. in my team only 2ppl are there including me. means me and my only one stupid college. he speaks to badly, he will tell me dnt u head, dnt u understand, are u playing games with, he had told these all words while doing technical work discussion, 2months back, and he told me next day i would hav not told u like that i made u to cry.but he dint ask me any sorry for that... And i know he does it intensionally to me, i dnt no why. He only told me i do it intensionally.
Yeasteray i fought with him, telling that why did u told me like that, and i scolded him, saying u r very cheap, dirty minded. Now again and again i feel like scolding him with the same words... Well doing like this is not good i know. i told to my friend he told me, u r a girl dnt do it.else ur name will get spoiled.
and my collegue also told me last week that he intensionally hurt me, and put the blames on me intensionally. most of the time he behaved with me badly he spoke bad words...
And he knows my week points. i will get attached by ppl v soon. in case if he speaks to me nicely then again i think he has become correct then i start talking to him, but in turn he wants to know my secrets, like wht i have plans in my work, he will do cross verification, which i wont cum to know, and once his work is done he dnt care for me, he speaks to me, who r u, i dnt care for u, i m selfish he will tell me directly and go...
i really dnt no how to identify ppl or whts the problem, how to come out of it... i dnt understand wht is happening.
And one of close friend told me that, u care for other ppl a lot, dnt care for them. i dnt know what to do...
Some times i tried to cut my vanes, i felt like killing my self. last week, i cut my hand skin with blade, i m harming my self... i want to come out of this OCD.
Initially, 2years back, i used to chk whether i hav locked the door or no 2 or 3times, and washing my hand 2 or 3 times etc. but now i am not atall doing it...But some times i do it.
and a month back one guy had proposed me in my company, i told him i need 6months of time. but when i was doing my work, i was fully concentrating on my work, he without my permission kissed my hand 2 or 3times he did it. he was trying to seduce. but its gods grace nothing happened. for that i felt like killing myself, and i told it my home, and i rejected him, but still i have fear that my sister(my own sister) may tell to my life partner later in my life, i mean at the time of my marriage, bcoz sometimes she will be doing things against me.
Tell me wht steps i should take, in order to come out of OCD.
One very imp thing is that if any one does bad to me or if they scold me i will scolde them once, and again i feel like scolding to them again and again, this is not correct. i think that whether they hurd wht i told or no...
Regards
Soniya
Can any one kindly help me with my problem. I am suffering from OCD problem, from past 2years. well its becoming much day by day.
If any one does jokes on me, i take it seriously. I am a software engineer. i have lot of stress. in my office, many teams are there, and i belong to a team WAP. in my team only 2ppl are there including me. means me and my only one stupid college. he speaks to badly, he will tell me dnt u head, dnt u understand, are u playing games with, he had told these all words while doing technical work discussion, 2months back, and he told me next day i would hav not told u like that i made u to cry.but he dint ask me any sorry for that... And i know he does it intensionally to me, i dnt no why. He only told me i do it intensionally.
Yeasteray i fought with him, telling that why did u told me like that, and i scolded him, saying u r very cheap, dirty minded. Now again and again i feel like scolding him with the same words... Well doing like this is not good i know. i told to my friend he told me, u r a girl dnt do it.else ur name will get spoiled.
and my collegue also told me last week that he intensionally hurt me, and put the blames on me intensionally. most of the time he behaved with me badly he spoke bad words...
And he knows my week points. i will get attached by ppl v soon. in case if he speaks to me nicely then again i think he has become correct then i start talking to him, but in turn he wants to know my secrets, like wht i have plans in my work, he will do cross verification, which i wont cum to know, and once his work is done he dnt care for me, he speaks to me, who r u, i dnt care for u, i m selfish he will tell me directly and go...
i really dnt no how to identify ppl or whts the problem, how to come out of it... i dnt understand wht is happening.
And one of close friend told me that, u care for other ppl a lot, dnt care for them. i dnt know what to do...
Some times i tried to cut my vanes, i felt like killing my self. last week, i cut my hand skin with blade, i m harming my self... i want to come out of this OCD.
Initially, 2years back, i used to chk whether i hav locked the door or no 2 or 3times, and washing my hand 2 or 3 times etc. but now i am not atall doing it...But some times i do it.
and a month back one guy had proposed me in my company, i told him i need 6months of time. but when i was doing my work, i was fully concentrating on my work, he without my permission kissed my hand 2 or 3times he did it. he was trying to seduce. but its gods grace nothing happened. for that i felt like killing myself, and i told it my home, and i rejected him, but still i have fear that my sister(my own sister) may tell to my life partner later in my life, i mean at the time of my marriage, bcoz sometimes she will be doing things against me.
Tell me wht steps i should take, in order to come out of OCD.
One very imp thing is that if any one does bad to me or if they scold me i will scolde them once, and again i feel like scolding to them again and again, this is not correct. i think that whether they hurd wht i told or no...
Regards
Soniya