No_Imagination
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Hey guys, this is like my first or second post ( I don't remember exactly).
Lately I've been having this obsessively aware of my loneliness. I feel lonely all the time, the whole ****ing day. I have no friends at all, it's really amazing to say the least. I feel so sad, and depressed because of it, I just think ending it all would be easy.
It's weird because, I felt like this before. Once in a while, people would come into my life, then I would lose them, and I would be sad, but father time would always make it better. Now I've been having this obsession/feeling of extreme loneliness for like a month or more. I feel like I'm finally going ****ing insane.
I feel like I'm the worst person in the world and the most depressing and a total loser. Im a total loser I guess but I still don't want to feel like this.
I see couples and they're having fun and kissing and stuff, and depending on my mood, I either feel hate because of their happy, perfect, shiny lives, with perfect jobs, loving families,tons of friends, and of course, love. It's like I have nothing but hate inside of me. Other days I'll just see couples and feel so sad, because nobody ever loved me. I don't have anyone. So there's also this obsession with having a GF, but of course that will never happen because I'm ****ing avoidant and talking to people even males is hard, and I have no friends to go out with to night clubs and talk to people...
I deserved this since I've never trusted anyone, I pushed people away and have generally been a ****ing idiot. Still, this obsession is driving me insane, I'm so sad all the time, nothing makes this feeling go away. I don't know what the hell is going on. And this is not a self-pity post, it's actually depressingly real.
So that's it.
Lately I've been having this obsessively aware of my loneliness. I feel lonely all the time, the whole ****ing day. I have no friends at all, it's really amazing to say the least. I feel so sad, and depressed because of it, I just think ending it all would be easy.
It's weird because, I felt like this before. Once in a while, people would come into my life, then I would lose them, and I would be sad, but father time would always make it better. Now I've been having this obsession/feeling of extreme loneliness for like a month or more. I feel like I'm finally going ****ing insane.
I feel like I'm the worst person in the world and the most depressing and a total loser. Im a total loser I guess but I still don't want to feel like this.
I see couples and they're having fun and kissing and stuff, and depending on my mood, I either feel hate because of their happy, perfect, shiny lives, with perfect jobs, loving families,tons of friends, and of course, love. It's like I have nothing but hate inside of me. Other days I'll just see couples and feel so sad, because nobody ever loved me. I don't have anyone. So there's also this obsession with having a GF, but of course that will never happen because I'm ****ing avoidant and talking to people even males is hard, and I have no friends to go out with to night clubs and talk to people...
I deserved this since I've never trusted anyone, I pushed people away and have generally been a ****ing idiot. Still, this obsession is driving me insane, I'm so sad all the time, nothing makes this feeling go away. I don't know what the hell is going on. And this is not a self-pity post, it's actually depressingly real.
So that's it.