Tab
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This will be a long post so be warned now. It started off as a typical night. My cousin (call him Fred) wanted me to come to a restaurant with him and his gf. Of course I wasn't sure at first but he finally convinced me to go. So we picked up his gf (call her Jackie) and she didn't look very happy and I thought well its because I'm here isn't it. But dinner went well and after that we were going to my other cousin's (call him Greg) gf's (call her April) brother's football game. So me Fred, Greg, and Jackie left at half time and went back to April's house. We were supposed to all meet their after anyway and get drunk. Anyway when we got back the 4 of us smoked a joint and I felt really really good. I'm on meds and smoking weed made it that much better. Anyway, when April finally came home she brought her damn friend with her. Both of them looked pissed off at something. Anyway the 4 of us went outside for a smoke and I brought something up that happened 3 weeks ago. We all went bowling except for Fred's gf and he never told her. She got mad at that and went inside and locked the three of us out side. Finally when we got back in the three girls started saying stuff about how we always lie and how we cover up for each other. Then they twisted it and made me the centre of it all. They said they like to have their own time and I never give it to them cuz I'm always there. Turns out Jackie was mad when we picked her up cuz I was there and April was mad cuz Greg left with us. All three girls went at me like I'm some sort of leech and always need to be with them and never leave them alone. I felt so bad. I felt like crying. I left the room and watched tv in the basement by myself for a better part of the night.
Heres what really bothered me: Almost every time they ask me to do something which involves going some where I ask them if they really care if I come. I'll even text them at random times during the week if they want me to come over that night. They always say ya they don't mind and never act like me being there bothers them. I try and give them space but then they question why I didn't want to go or why I wasn't over.
I honestly don't think I did anything wrong. And then they go and do this to me. I don't really have any other friends to hang out with and I'm always on the look out for things I might do to get them mad at me.
I've decided I'm not seeing them for a long time now. I don't want to talk to them, I don't even want to see them. Everything is always my fault and I'm the one who always has to go and try and fix it. No one else even bothers to fix things if I don't do all the work. I don't know where I went wrong or what to do next, so I'm just going to do what I think is best and not talk tot hem for a bit. :?
Heres what really bothered me: Almost every time they ask me to do something which involves going some where I ask them if they really care if I come. I'll even text them at random times during the week if they want me to come over that night. They always say ya they don't mind and never act like me being there bothers them. I try and give them space but then they question why I didn't want to go or why I wasn't over.
I honestly don't think I did anything wrong. And then they go and do this to me. I don't really have any other friends to hang out with and I'm always on the look out for things I might do to get them mad at me.
I've decided I'm not seeing them for a long time now. I don't want to talk to them, I don't even want to see them. Everything is always my fault and I'm the one who always has to go and try and fix it. No one else even bothers to fix things if I don't do all the work. I don't know where I went wrong or what to do next, so I'm just going to do what I think is best and not talk tot hem for a bit. :?