I feel like I cant carry on anymore because I'm so afraid all time. There's not one or two things, it feels like it's everything. I think if I step outside the front door that something will happen to me, I will be verbally or physically abused. It doesn't matter if somebody is with me or not. Even inside I don't feel safe, I think people will break in. I have terrible thoughts that seem to come out of nowhere of myself or the people I care about being harmed in the most disturbing ways.
I cant talk to people because of my social phobia and my low self esteem. I feel like people are watching me if I'm outside. I've tried to get over it and tell myself that lots of people worry about the same thing, that I'm being irrational. The thoughts still stay. I've tried exposing myself to my fears for years and nothing changes. I cant even kill myself because of thinking Hell may exist and I would go there.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish I could just remove these thoughts. I want to be normal. Not this pathetic person, who jumps at every noise.
I cant talk to people because of my social phobia and my low self esteem. I feel like people are watching me if I'm outside. I've tried to get over it and tell myself that lots of people worry about the same thing, that I'm being irrational. The thoughts still stay. I've tried exposing myself to my fears for years and nothing changes. I cant even kill myself because of thinking Hell may exist and I would go there.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish I could just remove these thoughts. I want to be normal. Not this pathetic person, who jumps at every noise.
