A few years back when I was leaving my karate lesson one day, this girl who I didn’t even know, and who was several years younger than me, said “excuse me, you’re ugly”, then her and her gang of friends started laughing at me. I know it may seem insignificant to some ppl, but it made me feel like crap, and I never forgot it, so now whenever I get a compliment, like someone saying im beautiful (and it has actually happened) I question it, I can’t understand how ppl could think it about me, so I think they must have ulterior motives or something. When im having a particularly bad day, I dig up all the negative things ppl have said about me over the years, which ive stored up inside my head, and I contemplate them, and I make myself feel ten times worse. It makes me lose faith in humankind, that most ppl you meet are cruel and heartless.
But you cant think like that. You have to erase those negatives memories from your head and replace them with all the good things ppl have said about u. im sure there have been plenty, you’ve just never stopped to think about them. Next time someone pays u a compliment, imprint it in your memory, maybe even write it down, so that the next time someone is horrible to you, you can read it and remember that there are some nice ppl out there and that u are worth something. Try to think that for every negative remark made towards you, there are two positive ones waiting to happen. Don’t know if that will make u feel any better but I hope u do X