Try And Convince Me To Live

razzle dazzle rose

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there is only being and not-being, no in between

if you cease existing, there are no rewards - you can't experience anything if you don't exist

people seem to get this romantic notion that death will bring happiness - if you die, there will be no happiness for you to experience; there will be nothing, you will experience nothing

the only way to experience anything is to live, to be, to exist

no matter how bad it is, at least it is something, rather than nothing

Very awesome post. Exactly this. I am gonna copy this and save it for those dark moments :) You need to allow yourself the chance to turn your life around; to experience the good things in life. That can only happen if you are alive and kicking. I live for the possibility.
 

HiddenErin

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Pretty much everything you said makes me remember how I felt not so long ago. And it is even easier to relate since we're same age. You know at the time I actually deleted my facebook because I couldn't stand the incoming pity train and ones in a while random person asking if I was still alive.
I'd like to believe that I am now at least quarter of the way out of that dark deep hole. The way I went about was kind of like some people already suggested in this thread. I started a new fitness program at home, and it was physically painful but I didn't give up on it and believe me all those random pains, and that chest pain, it will all disappear with little time. And as cliché as it might sound, ones you feel more physically strong, It gives you emotional strength too. Sort of a foundation to rebuild yourself on.
I don't want to write a whole essay here, but if you want someone to talk to for encouragement or motivation, or just to vent about the day, you can definitely drop me a line. There is no real reason to be entirely alone.
 

The Observer

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Well if you kill yourself...you would not get 3 pages of replies to vindicate your existence of a victim. Stick around man, might even make it to 5 pages one day!
 

Foxface

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Last night, I was thinking about all my problems. Right now, the canker sores are the worst. I'm having probably the worst one I ever had right now, hardly get any relief from the numbing stuff. The more sore it is, the less effect things seem to have on it for some reason.

I was thinking, that if I removed the canker sores from my problems, life would be a lot better, I think. I would still suck, but not as much as having the canker sores, and I wouldn't be in physical pain all the time.

It has been over a week, since my tongue got sore again. I have been out since Tuesday afternoon. When I got home, I didn't get all the stuff I was going to buy, and the tongue was too sore to go out.

Last night, I was having thoughts like breaking into a the dentast place in stealing the procaine/novacaine to numb to tongue or crash my car so I would be in a coma, so I wouldn't have to suffer. There can't be many who get canke rsores worse then I get. The front of my tongue, feels like someone put sulpheric acid on it, and feels disgusting what it hits the inside of my month. It's 10x worse, when I wake up, becuase it's dry and even more sore. I also have a canke sore, on the top of my tongue, towards the back left. When I chew, my teeth keep hitting it, which is painful. The pain is so extreme, that is paralyzes me sometimes. I stop dead in my tracks, for a few seconds. I'm not sure if anyone understands what I mean.

The canker sores, are chronic. I read up on them last night. My tongue can go from healed to a full blown canker sore within a half hour tops, and this chronic canker sore, started on New Years Eve 2009. I was on my way home from somewhere, and a canker sore just appeared out of nowhere. I bet there is no scienntific explaination for that. I bet any doctor will say that isn't possible. I never had canker sores like that, until I started getting chronic canker sores.

Before I got chronic canker sores, it would be 1-2 in a year, which I think I said before.
 

laure15

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You need to see a doctor for your canker sores. The faster you get them treated, the faster they heal. I never had such severe canker sores before, but when I was in middle school, I got braces and for the first few days, it hurt so much that I sort of lost my appetite to eat. Afterwards, it was much better.
 

Foxface

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I've been to see at least one specialiest a couple years ago. I've seen my old family dotor in the current one, no luck there.

I have an appointment for the 21st to see another doctor, I think.

Being in constant pain and applying the Anbesol/Orajel etc is no good. I spend at least $500 a year on the numbing stuff, I buy 4, and one is $8 the rest are $10

Anbesol = $10+
Orajel Ultra $10+
Zalactin B $10+
Kanka = 8+

Total 38+
Purchases per month 2+ (total=$76)
$76x12months = $912
 
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OCDd

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Like dottie, im not saying this to be rude, im saying it to try make you realize it and help you. you are a big hypocrite by saying you will not succeed, when you already know you can. you say:

Two things that will make you live 20 longer, is water and sunlight.
Sunlight always makes people happy, and so does smiling, or seeing someone else smile at you.

Everyone has a big problem in their life. That problem is life itself. Whatever the problem, you can overcome it.
You either make the best of life, or life makes the best of you. It's that simple.

If you think you will succeed, you will.
If you think you will fail, you will.

You are thinking you will fail, just say i will succeed, ive already gotten through years of this, and im still fine, im still in control, im still alive, and im still able to function. All you need to do is think you will succeed. just like you said, everyone has a problem in life, you can overcome this, and also you said you can make the best of life.....so do it. you just need to get a positive mind set. Conquer life one day at a time, just put something, whatever it is in your head and make that your reward for getting through the day, day dreaming, going for a walk, resting, making your favorite food, music, whatever it may be, use it as motivation. Also you could ask God for help, he will always love you no matter what, pray to him and ask him for help, and relief from the pain. ask him for anything you need to, he is always their. I hope this helps you, and i hope you get better, you will be in my prayers, and remember....you can get through this! :)
 

Roman Legion

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I wish I had a video clip from my DVD, but the show has lots of entertainment value as well as lessons we all seem to overlook.

Rube: You like spaghetti, George? I like spaghetti. I like board games. I like grabbing a trifecta with that longshot on top. That ozone smell you get from air purifiers. And I like knowing the space between my ears is immeasurable. Mahler's first, Bernstein conducting. You've got to think about all the things you like and decide whether they're worth sticking around for. And if they are, you'll find a way to do this.
George: And what if I don't?
Rube: Then you go away, and you don't get to like anything anymore.
 

Roman Legion

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I wish I had a video clip from my DVD, but the show has lots of entertainment value as well as lessons we all seem to overlook.

Rube: You like spaghetti, George? I like spaghetti. I like board games. I like grabbing a trifecta with that longshot on top. That ozone smell you get from air purifiers. And I like knowing the space between my ears is immeasurable. Mahler's first, Bernstein conducting. You've got to think about all the things you like and decide whether they're worth sticking around for. And if they are, you'll find a way to do this.
George: And what if I don't?
Rube: Then you go away, and you don't get to like anything anymore.
 
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