WHATS THE REASON U THINK

I was always shy, but not like how i am right now, i think it stared for me when i found out that communication is the key to everything and i was trying to find out how to be a good conversationalist and i thought about it too much.

Also it me be when something dramatic happens, because i also started getting more Anxiety when i got into a fight with a roomate and i said something i shouldn't have said.

Or it can be that i never had a real relationship with a girl, and its bothering me so much.