What do you live for?

I feel like I should have an answer but honestly I'm not sure.

I live for Joy. I live for moments of passion. To feel love. To look at the amazing beauty in this world, and to perhaps take away even the tiniest amounts of suffering. I live to figure it all out, to make peace with God. I Just exist because I do. I don't really need a reason (although I think about it a lot.) I just instinctively know there is more to it than is apparent and like the Beatle's say, I let it be.

Right now I'm living for finding out what I want to live for.

atm nothing really..habit keeps me going, thats about it..i havent had a true purpose in many years..

JWH said: ↑

Firstly, why are you still alive. What keeps you going? If you have come this far as I see it you must have had something to live for.

I wish I did, the only reason I have come this far is because I don't have the courage to un-live myself. I hate being in this world, everything is such a struggle. I am now in my 20s, it is a time where life is suppose to be funnest, but it isn't. I just can't imagine what life would be like in my 40s and 50s since my 20s are already so dreadful. Even as a child and teenager, I could not remember a time I really enjoyed life.

im sure I have a reason.... to be honest though im not sure and cant think of one immediately...id like to think I could trick a girl into falling for me and having a fam maybe one day lol....

what Lavinialuna said. that's kinda my line of thinking.

Right now I wonder sort of aimlessly in life waiting for that one thing to finally come. All I do now a days is walk and drink heavily caffeinated beverages. I roam the streets going from block to block entering gas station convenience stores and starbucks and buying monster energy drinks to iced vanilla lattes. All this walking hasn't made me loose much weight and I think that at one point I actually gained weight in spite of all the walking due to too much caffeinated beverage consumption. My life is just going from one caffeine high to the next, pacing around absent mindedly staring blankly into space. I'm just waiting for things to change and for structure to come back into my life. The daily routine is something I miss and will surely welcome. I want to start going back to school and possibly finding a part time job. All in due time.