lonesomeboy
Well-known member
hi all, new user here. glad i have found this board. I suffer from very bad SP and shyness that has affected throughout my life. its made me very depressed.
my problem is i have developed a really bad crush on a girl that i work with. shes funny, beautiful, outgoing and everything that iam not. it makes me very nervous to talk to her 1-on-1 and I find myself not looking in her eyes. she always says 'hi' to me and everything, but i can tell my SP is driving her away as conversations lead away from me to someone 'normal'. i find it hard finding a topic of conversation to start with, and the talks i have with her are sometimes awkward with pauses and silences because I cant carry the conversation. god iam pathetic. i get so embarrassed. how can i talk when i never go out clubbing or anything, never been overseas on my won, done anything interesting, no hobbies, no friends ??
she has developed a rather close relationship with another guy i work with, and its making me extremely jealous and even more depressed. she does things with this guy on the weekends and they go on breaks together. god it makes me feel like shit. i totally lose my appetite during lunchtime and iam starting to lose weight.
what can i do? i hate my sp and shyness and wish i was dead sometimes. it has made me a complete utter loser. i have no friends no life no ambitions. what can i offer to this girl ? appreciate all ur feedback..sorry for the long post.
my problem is i have developed a really bad crush on a girl that i work with. shes funny, beautiful, outgoing and everything that iam not. it makes me very nervous to talk to her 1-on-1 and I find myself not looking in her eyes. she always says 'hi' to me and everything, but i can tell my SP is driving her away as conversations lead away from me to someone 'normal'. i find it hard finding a topic of conversation to start with, and the talks i have with her are sometimes awkward with pauses and silences because I cant carry the conversation. god iam pathetic. i get so embarrassed. how can i talk when i never go out clubbing or anything, never been overseas on my won, done anything interesting, no hobbies, no friends ??
she has developed a rather close relationship with another guy i work with, and its making me extremely jealous and even more depressed. she does things with this guy on the weekends and they go on breaks together. god it makes me feel like shit. i totally lose my appetite during lunchtime and iam starting to lose weight.
what can i do? i hate my sp and shyness and wish i was dead sometimes. it has made me a complete utter loser. i have no friends no life no ambitions. what can i offer to this girl ? appreciate all ur feedback..sorry for the long post.