Was an anxiety inducing, fear filled drive all the way there. I almost talked myself out of going but knew I couldn't do that so I pushed down my fear and feelings of nausea and went in. And it wasn't bad. It was great actually. I did sit like a bump on a log for the first ten minutes because I'm so painfully shy but she managed to get out of me the reasons why I had wanted to talk to someone in the first place. My only problem is that I initially came in to talk about my SA and what I could do to help it without medication(because pills are gross) and every problem that I had to bring up was just rooted to another problem that we'll eventually have to talk about. This session was easy but I have a feeling that it's not going to stay that way. Admitting to her that not only do I feel like my SA has gotten out of control a bit but that I might be depressed was embarrasing. Saying it to another person makes me feel much more weak then just telling myself.
Ok, just wanted to get that out there..
By the by, is anyone else in counseling and if so was it hard for you to start out too? Has it gotten better or do you feel like it's helped you at all?
Ok, just wanted to get that out there..
By the by, is anyone else in counseling and if so was it hard for you to start out too? Has it gotten better or do you feel like it's helped you at all?
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