I know, it can be pretty depressing here sometimes! Ha. But there are good things about this forum too, you can see that other people are suffering from the exact same problems as you, and you're are in fact NOT a crazy person! :lol:
And also you can get some good advice on treatment and have a good old rant about life if you want.
And hopefully you'll see that you can definitely get better from SA, that slowly and surely you can get back out there and be the person you want to be, do the things you want to do, and be confident in yourself!
Good luck!