Brittney
Member
I’m seeing things now that really aren’t there
Is this still OCD or am I finally loosing my mind or slipping into another disorder. Or is it just OCD making me think I’m going crazy and now have something worse than OCD (What I deem worse than OCD)
As far back as I can remember I’ve had OCD, light flicking as a child, fear of the dark (still have that at 36) fear of self harm or my children, fear of demons and other religious stuff.
That religious stuff is so bad.
In the last year, I keep thinking of driving my car off a cliff which is a change from driving into on coming traffic.
So the latest shit is when I wake up, I see this demon things in my bed room, I rub eyes try to wake, then worse am wide awake and I still see them. Then when I looked over at my partner I seen his face different scary like from a freaky movie. I laid there heart racing scared hooping I’m still asleep dreaming.. But I’m not cause I get up or wake my partner and I know I’m not asleep/
So what the heck is this? I’m so scared I’m so sick of fighting this dam thing all the time.
I cant walk from one room in the house to another without doing something, like stupid things.
An example I walk into the kitchen, I have to look under the kitchen cupboard (they are high up ones) then I stand there bobbing my head up and down looking under the cupboard x times till the pattern is just right.
Sorry raving here I’m just so desperate to talk to someone about this. I’m also really scared to read other people threads cause I’ll taken on their obsessions. You know like someone told me once about a guy that would drive over a bump in the road and panic he drove over someone, so guess who now has this? Yes me.
The constant religious stuff is driving me nuts, the thoughts just keep going around in my head. I don’t even know what I believe in anymore, is satan confusing me? Or is it OCD. I hear so much crap in my head, sometimes lucky not at the moment.
Anyone else have religious OCD stuff. I’m to scared to post the worse of it, it’s bad is that OCD as well the religious stuff?
Is this still OCD or am I finally loosing my mind or slipping into another disorder. Or is it just OCD making me think I’m going crazy and now have something worse than OCD (What I deem worse than OCD)
As far back as I can remember I’ve had OCD, light flicking as a child, fear of the dark (still have that at 36) fear of self harm or my children, fear of demons and other religious stuff.
That religious stuff is so bad.
In the last year, I keep thinking of driving my car off a cliff which is a change from driving into on coming traffic.
So the latest shit is when I wake up, I see this demon things in my bed room, I rub eyes try to wake, then worse am wide awake and I still see them. Then when I looked over at my partner I seen his face different scary like from a freaky movie. I laid there heart racing scared hooping I’m still asleep dreaming.. But I’m not cause I get up or wake my partner and I know I’m not asleep/
So what the heck is this? I’m so scared I’m so sick of fighting this dam thing all the time.
I cant walk from one room in the house to another without doing something, like stupid things.
An example I walk into the kitchen, I have to look under the kitchen cupboard (they are high up ones) then I stand there bobbing my head up and down looking under the cupboard x times till the pattern is just right.
Sorry raving here I’m just so desperate to talk to someone about this. I’m also really scared to read other people threads cause I’ll taken on their obsessions. You know like someone told me once about a guy that would drive over a bump in the road and panic he drove over someone, so guess who now has this? Yes me.
The constant religious stuff is driving me nuts, the thoughts just keep going around in my head. I don’t even know what I believe in anymore, is satan confusing me? Or is it OCD. I hear so much crap in my head, sometimes lucky not at the moment.
Anyone else have religious OCD stuff. I’m to scared to post the worse of it, it’s bad is that OCD as well the religious stuff?
