Meow
Well-known member
Yeah so i'm having one of those spaz attacks when you flip out, know what I mean? I'm home alone I just wanna go to the store and get lots of alcohol and cigarettes even tho i gave both of them up 2 years ago... I feel like cutting myself again and I just took 2 xanax. I wanna scream and cry and smash things and bang my head on the fuckin floor to make it all go away.
Someone important to me who needs to make a lot up to me said they'd call right back and never did, it's been like 5 hours... so I'm a peice of shit to them, and they're the ones that need to be making it up to me. I wish I could just say... "It aint nothing, forget it" but I can't.
It's not just that it's everything im sick of the appointments im sick of all these drugs and ones not working and im sick of going to therapy, I have a new therapist and I just don't wanna go anymore..
My man aint home till like 1am or 2am
I can't take this tonight I can't take it this phone call thing is just the icing on the cake
I want to jump in a very big dark hole and never come out.
Did I mention I fuckin HATE MYSELF i'm incapable of getting better, I'm stupid and useless I'm just sucking up air and eating food someone starving could eat, i'm pointless. I'm ugly i'm disgusting and I bet everyone thinks so deep down I HATE EVERYTHING TODAY AND I HATE ME
Someone important to me who needs to make a lot up to me said they'd call right back and never did, it's been like 5 hours... so I'm a peice of shit to them, and they're the ones that need to be making it up to me. I wish I could just say... "It aint nothing, forget it" but I can't.
It's not just that it's everything im sick of the appointments im sick of all these drugs and ones not working and im sick of going to therapy, I have a new therapist and I just don't wanna go anymore..
My man aint home till like 1am or 2am
I can't take this tonight I can't take it this phone call thing is just the icing on the cake
I want to jump in a very big dark hole and never come out.
Did I mention I fuckin HATE MYSELF i'm incapable of getting better, I'm stupid and useless I'm just sucking up air and eating food someone starving could eat, i'm pointless. I'm ugly i'm disgusting and I bet everyone thinks so deep down I HATE EVERYTHING TODAY AND I HATE ME