lonely_drummer
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Well, I played a show tonight with the band and it went really well. The place was pretty cool, had a great sound system and everything really sounded good. Also we were playing for an environmental fundraiser dealio, so that was pretty sweet too. So anywho, usually before we play sets, I get really nervous and anxious and I try really hard to just chill out however once we start playing all the anxiety is gone and Im able to enjoy being on stage. I remember trying to tune the guitar at first and I couldnt stop shaking, happens all the time and then I was fine once we all played. So we played and all was good and we finished and this is usually when the anxiety really kicks in. So I get off stage and was just going to wait to check out the other bands. Then fans and people all start to come around saying it was a good set and thats great and all but I just felt so suffocated. And then my bass player comes over and tells me that a guy from a local magazine wanted to interview us and then I freaked out and just bailed. I just up and left the place and got in my car and drove home and thats not the first time this has happend. I know, it sounds horrible and completely ridiculous. And as Im driving home my bass player phones me asking where I went and the band knows about my SA and are really cool about it and I just told him that I couldnt handle it, I just had to leave and he understood which I really appreciate. However I just feel like total crap, I feel like I abandon them whenever I do this and then I just feel guilty. This is exactly how I feel right now, I feel guilty, for letting them down. I dont know what else to say, I just feel like sh!t