thegunners21
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Since I don't have a best friend, I'm going to be using this space to vent and clear out my thoughts. You're free to ignore it or comment on it.
It's been 8 days since I found out and I'm still depressed as shit. I don't feel like eating anything, my motivation to do anything is dead.
Why did she have to leave me? Is he that much better than me? I've known her for nearly 2 years and she's known him only for months, yet she agreed to be his gf and never said yes to me. I find that as a cold hard slap across my face. The thing that makes the most angry is that she never ever told me about him. Never told me about him visiting her for a week, never told me that she liked him, never told me she stopped liking me.
I feel really weird, like I'm not myself anymore. It's really hard to get over someone if the person you're trying to get over is your best friend. I'm not sure I can live without her being my best friend, I'll go crazy otherwise. Part of me hopes that she breaks up with him and I have a feeling they will, because she said she only said yes to him because she got nervous. That is not a very good reason to say yes, but then part of me thinks she was saying it just to string me along. I would still take her back any second though.
I should have treated her better. I didn't make her feel special. I didn't visit her enough, but that was because we weren't in a committed relationship. I don't think she ever wanted one with me. If she had, I would done all of those things. I should have been more decisive about things. I should have told her that I don't want anymore of this casual BS, I want a committed relationship and I'm willing to make it work.
I realize i was a rebound to her. I was a rebound to her, while she was a priority to me. That is bound to hurt me. I should not have invested so much in a casual relationship. It was stupid of me.
I miss hugging her, kissing her, cuddling with her and laughing with her. We used to talk for hours, then she went on this trip and everything changed. She drifted away from me and I'm afraid she's too far gone now. I couldn't afford to visit her, but this guy could and now he's her bf. IT STILL PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH THAT SHE HAS A BF!
rant over.
It's been 8 days since I found out and I'm still depressed as shit. I don't feel like eating anything, my motivation to do anything is dead.
Why did she have to leave me? Is he that much better than me? I've known her for nearly 2 years and she's known him only for months, yet she agreed to be his gf and never said yes to me. I find that as a cold hard slap across my face. The thing that makes the most angry is that she never ever told me about him. Never told me about him visiting her for a week, never told me that she liked him, never told me she stopped liking me.
I feel really weird, like I'm not myself anymore. It's really hard to get over someone if the person you're trying to get over is your best friend. I'm not sure I can live without her being my best friend, I'll go crazy otherwise. Part of me hopes that she breaks up with him and I have a feeling they will, because she said she only said yes to him because she got nervous. That is not a very good reason to say yes, but then part of me thinks she was saying it just to string me along. I would still take her back any second though.
I should have treated her better. I didn't make her feel special. I didn't visit her enough, but that was because we weren't in a committed relationship. I don't think she ever wanted one with me. If she had, I would done all of those things. I should have been more decisive about things. I should have told her that I don't want anymore of this casual BS, I want a committed relationship and I'm willing to make it work.
I realize i was a rebound to her. I was a rebound to her, while she was a priority to me. That is bound to hurt me. I should not have invested so much in a casual relationship. It was stupid of me.
I miss hugging her, kissing her, cuddling with her and laughing with her. We used to talk for hours, then she went on this trip and everything changed. She drifted away from me and I'm afraid she's too far gone now. I couldn't afford to visit her, but this guy could and now he's her bf. IT STILL PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH THAT SHE HAS A BF!
rant over.
