Hey guys. Haven't been active for a while. A lot of things have changed in my life. Some for the better, some not so much. Anyway, today, I looked in the mirror, and saw crap. I gained some weight, you can hardly see my face under my facial hair, I still have no job, I'm slacking up on school, and my self esteem is going down the crapper. I'm tired of my girlfriend having to put up with this, as I feel I am only hampering her progress. I just feel like a big steaming pile of dung lol. Its like she is the only one trying to make this work and I am just here BSing. For all of you guys out there that want a girlfriend, its nice, but trust me when i tell you, It is much more work than you will EVER imagine and some times you will most definitely think to yourself "damn, I wish I were single again" lol. If you haven't been in a relationship before and think otherwise, take my word for it, I've had enough to know lol. Ok the rant may be done. But I may just come back and let some more things off.