Ken
Well-known member
Ok I hope this rant makes sense. I just needed to get it out of my system.
I am so fucking tired of life. I always feel mentally drained, and it seems so damn hard to get motivated to do anything. In fact, my apathy has probably been what has prevented me from just killing myself and getting it over with so far. I just end up feeling numb all the time. Its like I just don't care about life. I look around and see others who have succeeded so easily and people that I knew in highschool that have seemed to really grow up, leaving me in the dust. Though if I try to talk about this to my psychologist, I just end up freezing up, thanks to the social anxiety. Its so damn hard to tell anyone about how I am really feeling. It just sucks feeling so alone and worthless all the damn time.
I am so fucking tired of life. I always feel mentally drained, and it seems so damn hard to get motivated to do anything. In fact, my apathy has probably been what has prevented me from just killing myself and getting it over with so far. I just end up feeling numb all the time. Its like I just don't care about life. I look around and see others who have succeeded so easily and people that I knew in highschool that have seemed to really grow up, leaving me in the dust. Though if I try to talk about this to my psychologist, I just end up freezing up, thanks to the social anxiety. Its so damn hard to tell anyone about how I am really feeling. It just sucks feeling so alone and worthless all the damn time.