Where to begin. I'll just come out and say it. I am a complete wreck. I mean I don't know what to do with myself. From the moment I wake up I am, simply put, beyond miserable. Always anxious and depressed and suicidal. My issues have kept me from doing the simplest of tasks. I can't work, or drive, or help my loved ones in any way. The worst part is no one in my family is aware of my issues so I get all these responsibilities put on me and I just freeze up. I feel as if I die a million deaths at that moment because of how useless I feel. All I ever want to do is cry my eyes out. I honestly don't know how much longer I can go, but I'm still here so that has got to mean something.
Ah take it the only reason ye huv'nae said anything to make yer family aware of yer issues is mainly due how they'll react. And they start treating you differently.
Or you get so overwhelmed just tryin' to get yer feelings across that ye breakdown in tears. Also it's sounds like you just
"grin and bear it" as the sayin' goes. I'm exactly the same, but ah can definitely relate to how yer feelings. So don't feel as though it's just you who's struggling with this.
But if I am to be honest with myself, if this persists I know I will get to a point where I will say enough and end it. Funny isn't it? When the though of killing yourself is the only thing that brings any kind of happiness even if it is for a slight second. Sorry for this super depressing post but I don't know what else I can do. :crying:
Oh, ah know the feelin'. Ah thought aboot endin' it all many times butr something's keepin' me here. But ah think the reason the though of killing ourselves is the only thing that brings any kind of happiness is mainlu because we don't really want to. We just want the pain and frustration that comes with dealing our issues on a daily basis to end, really.
And to function in the same way we see everyone else doing.
Sorry, ah can't offer any advice or even know if this response will be of any help to ye as far makin' ye feel less alone. Anywayy, stay strong or, at least try to, eh? :thumbup:
Though, ah think the fact wimmin seem to get more help when it comes to mental health issues is due to guys fearing that they'll be shamed for struggling with anxiety and depression because of how we're taught to be as men. Stiff upper lip. Boys don't cry an all that. Just an observation, not having a go at women there.
Ma only true advice would be if yer relationship isn't dysfunctional and they care about you enough to take the time to listen to you and help you, then reach out to them for support. Though, seeking help on yer own isn't anything to be ashamed of. But huvin that extra family support does make it a wee bit easier - knowing you can confide in them and they won't betray you by talking about ye behind yer back - as my family did when ah confided in them that ah felt depressed and wus considering killing myself.
Anyway, sorry to hear yer going through a difficult time. :sad: