I was planning on going to a party last night at my friends....however, once I found out there was going to be a good amount of people there, like over 25, I started to feel my nerves kick in. Also, I found out there would be people there from my high school who I never really talked to throughout the whole 4 years. This made me feel more uncomfortable to go to a party with them there after they knew how shy I was in high school.....and I thought to myself, "What are they going think when they see me there?" Then I tried to think something more positive like "I was invited to this party by the host. Who cares what they think I have a right to be there and have a good time just as much as them." Ultimately though, I let my negative thoughts get to me. The thought of going to this party and socializing w/ all these people just plain scared me.....I didn't want to be the "wallflower" or super-quiet person there. I've experienced it enough times, and I wasn't going to risk it happening again.....And because, while I was getting ready to possibly go I could barely look in the mirror without thinking that I'm ugly, I definitely didn't want to go.....How would I go and have confidence thinking these things? Although I didn't go, I do fully realize and am aware of certain thoughts and limiting beliefs that are causing this SA and "shyness." I will work at changing these negative beliefs and thoughts in order to get where I want in life.....to be the person that I want to be. We all have the potential, but we have to reach for it.