Dude, you're taking 2 wrong steps at the time... I just love how people know their problem and yet refuse to google it for a cure. Nowadays, the internet is more powerful than any single doctor.
First of all, your manlynes problem comes from negative beliefs what a man should be like and you try to conform to that ideal. I recommend watching BBC series of "How TV ruined your life" on youtube. Full episodes there. 6 of them. Hey, it's not like you have an evening out planned.. Just watch them, overcome your ego for the greater good of getting better.
COMPARING YOURSELF TO PEOPLE only stimulates your continued self-criticizing and drops your self-worth to a minimum. Look it up. It is a problem SADers have.
And now towards your god complex. People don't want to hear you saying you're god and you're better than everyone. But that does not mean you can change the way you think. It probably is a core trait that you need to make it work for you. I did.
Overcoming core traits - ED Bites
I think I'm my own god. I have one life, one chance, so I'm the one taking the decisions, I'm the one taking responsibility (it is inevitable). It helps to shade it with one layer of sublimation. It protects your mouth from accidentally uttering something stupid. Read a book about the power of your subconsciousness and you will realize, that if there is godlikeness it you - it's your subconscious. You will be amazed how powerful it is. And yeah, it works. Be skeptical while reading the book, It has a lot of religious "your belief can move matter" kind of bull****. Just realize that it is indirect influence. You smile - they smile. Manipulation?