It's now getting nearer to Christmas, or whatever you celebrate. I was thinking, how do you get through it?
My family (who I live with) all go down my nan's for Christmas Day and Boxing Day. I'm agoraphobic, social phobic and depressed, so of course I never go. Christmas dinner for one with a nice bottle of wine. Okay, a sandwhich and a bottle of wine. In a way I'm glad they're not around, acting happy is exhausting, not to mention the pains in my face from the forced smiling whenever anyone looks in my direction. I always have to do the over the top happy routine a week before just so they will go. I don't want them staying home just for me. Makes me feel like I'm ruining their Christmas. And then a week later we have New Year's Eve. *sigh* I don't really like being alone at Christmas, but what can I do. I cant ask them to stay, that's selfish.
Anyone else going to be alone on Christmas and what will you be doing? Do any of you also have to act like you're okay?
My family (who I live with) all go down my nan's for Christmas Day and Boxing Day. I'm agoraphobic, social phobic and depressed, so of course I never go. Christmas dinner for one with a nice bottle of wine. Okay, a sandwhich and a bottle of wine. In a way I'm glad they're not around, acting happy is exhausting, not to mention the pains in my face from the forced smiling whenever anyone looks in my direction. I always have to do the over the top happy routine a week before just so they will go. I don't want them staying home just for me. Makes me feel like I'm ruining their Christmas. And then a week later we have New Year's Eve. *sigh* I don't really like being alone at Christmas, but what can I do. I cant ask them to stay, that's selfish.
Anyone else going to be alone on Christmas and what will you be doing? Do any of you also have to act like you're okay?