lonesomeboy
Well-known member
god you won't believe what happened today. i went to lunch with this tall good looking work colleague of mine, so we bought something and sat down at this bench at a nearby park. we notice two girls on the other bench talking german to one another, and my colleague who speaks german just starts talking to them in german right there and there trying to chat them up.
they talk for a bit but the girls end up continuing their conversation on their own, me and my colleague sit down and eat.
After we finished eating and just about to leave, my colleague goes up to the girls and starts chatting them up. I just stand there and watch like a moron whilst he chats them up, they are all smiling and laughing. I sit down on the bench to wait, but I get so HATEFUL of envy agaisnt my work colleague for being able to do that. I mean hes a nice guy and all, but I just hated him for being NORMAL and confident with girls like that, and something I am not. Whats worse I hated myself even worse for being the way Iam. I just have no confidence and self-esteem in these situations, in every else I can almost fake it to pass as normal, but when it comes to girls and things like this Iam hopeless. god seriously iam the biggest pathetic loser...
anyways, they keep on chatting and I just can't stand it anymore looking on. One of the girls kinda turns my way and looks at me probably wondering "Whats wrong with that guy? wat a weirdo". I can't stand it anymore watching them, so I get up and leave. My colleague ends up with their phone numbers...:/...I sort of stop talking to him on the way back. I know its mean but I just cant even stand to look at him.
I feel like @#%$ now, .....sorry for the long email..but I just had to vent.
they talk for a bit but the girls end up continuing their conversation on their own, me and my colleague sit down and eat.
After we finished eating and just about to leave, my colleague goes up to the girls and starts chatting them up. I just stand there and watch like a moron whilst he chats them up, they are all smiling and laughing. I sit down on the bench to wait, but I get so HATEFUL of envy agaisnt my work colleague for being able to do that. I mean hes a nice guy and all, but I just hated him for being NORMAL and confident with girls like that, and something I am not. Whats worse I hated myself even worse for being the way Iam. I just have no confidence and self-esteem in these situations, in every else I can almost fake it to pass as normal, but when it comes to girls and things like this Iam hopeless. god seriously iam the biggest pathetic loser...
anyways, they keep on chatting and I just can't stand it anymore looking on. One of the girls kinda turns my way and looks at me probably wondering "Whats wrong with that guy? wat a weirdo". I can't stand it anymore watching them, so I get up and leave. My colleague ends up with their phone numbers...:/...I sort of stop talking to him on the way back. I know its mean but I just cant even stand to look at him.
I feel like @#%$ now, .....sorry for the long email..but I just had to vent.