mismeek
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Hey guys remember me!! Its mismeek.. well shes not so meek anymore!!
for the last 6 years I have had crippling anxiety in social situations.. couldn't go to the store, couldn't go to school for long period of time and I even got to the point where I couldn't leave me house without being sedated.
Today I go to work everyday, attend college year round (Im graduating in Dec. !!!!) and even hang out with friends on the weekends!
How did I make this huge turn around??
changing my outlook on life.. and getting a little bitchy
I'm a very nice person..always trying to please everyone and would bend over backward for family and friends.. its got to the point where i was working, going to school, coming home and doing ALL the house work even tho there were two other people in the house.. making dinner, then going to my grandparents to clean and cook for them. I was so stressed that i was having panic attacks daily and my hair was beginning to fall out. finally one night when I was typing up my sister term paper I thought "enough was enough" I told my sister that that this was not my job and that she had to do it on her own because I had better things to do. Of course i went to my room and had a major panic attack.. but afterward I felt like I was in control of myself for once. after that I learned to say no more often.. I stopped taking peoples shifts at work.. stopped volunteering to help with homework. I WAS NOW PUTTING MYSELF FIRST. Is it selfish? maybe. But it gave me more confidence. I stopped caring want people might be thinking about me in class. I was no longer wondering if the cashier thought my clothes looked tacky. I felt more at ease and less tense.
I'm not saying I'm completely cured or anything.. but my life it a million times better than it was. I still take medication and rely on the occasional therapy session, but I still think my mindset is what helps the most.
its 2am here and im kinda hyped up on sugar and I dunno if this makes any sense at all.. but I hope it does. I guess what im trying to say is that you all need to remember that this is YOUR life. You're running the show. Dont let yourself be the passenger anymore!
xoxoxoxo Meeky!!
for the last 6 years I have had crippling anxiety in social situations.. couldn't go to the store, couldn't go to school for long period of time and I even got to the point where I couldn't leave me house without being sedated.
Today I go to work everyday, attend college year round (Im graduating in Dec. !!!!) and even hang out with friends on the weekends!
How did I make this huge turn around??
changing my outlook on life.. and getting a little bitchy
I'm a very nice person..always trying to please everyone and would bend over backward for family and friends.. its got to the point where i was working, going to school, coming home and doing ALL the house work even tho there were two other people in the house.. making dinner, then going to my grandparents to clean and cook for them. I was so stressed that i was having panic attacks daily and my hair was beginning to fall out. finally one night when I was typing up my sister term paper I thought "enough was enough" I told my sister that that this was not my job and that she had to do it on her own because I had better things to do. Of course i went to my room and had a major panic attack.. but afterward I felt like I was in control of myself for once. after that I learned to say no more often.. I stopped taking peoples shifts at work.. stopped volunteering to help with homework. I WAS NOW PUTTING MYSELF FIRST. Is it selfish? maybe. But it gave me more confidence. I stopped caring want people might be thinking about me in class. I was no longer wondering if the cashier thought my clothes looked tacky. I felt more at ease and less tense.
I'm not saying I'm completely cured or anything.. but my life it a million times better than it was. I still take medication and rely on the occasional therapy session, but I still think my mindset is what helps the most.
its 2am here and im kinda hyped up on sugar and I dunno if this makes any sense at all.. but I hope it does. I guess what im trying to say is that you all need to remember that this is YOUR life. You're running the show. Dont let yourself be the passenger anymore!
xoxoxoxo Meeky!!