Anubis
Well-known member
I'm really starting to become disillusioned with society's infatuation with emotion in general. Why do we spend so much time rectifying such a fleeting phenomenon? We work so hard trying to be "positive" and "at peace" while the rest of our lives are just collapsing around us. We fight this war against "emotion" so we can control it, but as soon as we "control" it, it's changes form and defeats us again.
I mean, I'm serious. I've practically been on an emotional crusade for about 5 years now (ever since I found out I had "social phobia"). I've spent years trying to find the "secret" cure to being emotionally stable. I've even written a complete biography of myself from day 1! (It's freakin 25 pages, single-spaced, 9-font). All of this just to find that maleficent "event" that triggered my apparent social phobia, but it's all been for naught. As soon as I think I found my "problem", I just run into another problem. It's like a wild-goose chase that never ends, heh.
And what do I have to show for it? A failed academic career, a social life that's still practically identical to what it was 5 years ago, and a life that's extremely inefficient in general (I accomplish very little every day).
Sometimes I wonder if society's successful people even really give a shit about their emotions (to the extent of allowing them to dictate their actions)? Maybe that's why they get so much shit done?
But yea, I just felt I had to air my opinion out. I'm not necessarily looking for a response, but feel free to do so if inclined.
I mean, I'm serious. I've practically been on an emotional crusade for about 5 years now (ever since I found out I had "social phobia"). I've spent years trying to find the "secret" cure to being emotionally stable. I've even written a complete biography of myself from day 1! (It's freakin 25 pages, single-spaced, 9-font). All of this just to find that maleficent "event" that triggered my apparent social phobia, but it's all been for naught. As soon as I think I found my "problem", I just run into another problem. It's like a wild-goose chase that never ends, heh.
And what do I have to show for it? A failed academic career, a social life that's still practically identical to what it was 5 years ago, and a life that's extremely inefficient in general (I accomplish very little every day).
Sometimes I wonder if society's successful people even really give a shit about their emotions (to the extent of allowing them to dictate their actions)? Maybe that's why they get so much shit done?
But yea, I just felt I had to air my opinion out. I'm not necessarily looking for a response, but feel free to do so if inclined.
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