Having to move to a small town made my SA come back, so on a technicality, that aspect makes me feel a little depressed. I had felt like my SA was gone for some time (I even posted a thread about it years ago), but sure enough, slowly, things just got bad again due to not living in a crowded area.
Yeah, it does. Living where I do--the house I that I live in and have lived in for 14 years, and the nearby town--is a constant reminder of my childhood and so many experiences that I want to forget. And it also makes things much harder living here because I am 12 miles from the nearest town. I am about 30 miles from any towns/cities that would have places/people.
I feel trapped here. I feel like I am cut off from the world.
When you've lived in a small town for your whole life, and alot of people know you, plus you have SA, it makes you really want to move away and friends or family don't understand that in my life. Not even exposure therapy could fix that kind of thing, why and how could you fix it?. The only way out is to live in a bigger city, or on the outskirts of a big city. Or buy a condo in the bigger city. But seriously, theres nothing you can really do to change the hell of living in a small town. **** it's gay.
I dunno what to choose in the poll. Where I'm living, I'm miserable, and all my other options at the moment would be equally miserable. At least this is a miserable I'm used to.
I live with my parents, and its getting to be a little annoying. I still feel like I'm a little mama's boy. "ooh that's nice he's helping his family, how cute, but he's still worth nothing socially"
Sure it wouldn't fix everything, but it would help in meeting people and stuff.
(Or maybe I'd just lock myself in my apartment and never leave >_>)
When you've lived in a small town for your whole life, and alot of people know you, plus you have SA, it makes you really want to move away and friends or family don't understand that in my life. Not even exposure therapy could fix that kind of thing, why and how could you fix it?. The only way out is to live in a bigger city, or on the outskirts of a big city. Or buy a condo in the bigger city. But seriously, theres nothing you can really do to change the hell of living in a small town. **** it's gay.
I used to live in a small town (went to high school there), but I isolated quite a bit, didn't go out on weekends etc. Still I go back there every once in a while and I'll recognize people from school, but they have no idea who I am. Like being a spy almost. It's very odd. I'm a ghost except to a handful of my friends. I think that's both a good and a bad thing.
Living in a large city is also good and bad, bad because it triggers my SA more (more people, more anxiety for me), but good because it is exposure and I can blend in 🤭
am i going to focus on the fact i live in a comfortable house with ✓modern amenities, ✓wifi, ✓coffeemaker, ✓cute cat, ✓garden)... or am i going to focus on the dilapidation i drive past, the degenerates on the street, and why i am afraid to go for walks in my community alone for fear of being accosted...
^the lesson of thanksgiving. I am fine where I am. I'm grateful to have a roof over my head, food, water, clothes, family, etc. I used to take these things for granted. For some reason, I thought life would be better at another city, or I'd even strike it rich! How naive I was.
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