I believe I will be able to control it but not completely overcome it. Control it enough so that it is not so noticeable. I think I have made big steps towards that in the last months. I've dialed back the anxiety to a manageable level.
I don't think I will ever overcome it. If it has not happened by now, its not going to.
I've lived with it for 31 years now.
Any improvement I've ever made through therapy and meds has been erased with each regression.
But thats just me, everyone is different.
That's alright. The answers aren't always as clear as they are for others, and neither should they be, because everybody is different and solves this in his/her own way. If you're still unsure, I'd definitely suggest you keep on doing what makes you ''think'' you're improving. See, improvement doesn't lay with actual physical improvement, but within that -you- feel better. So if you observe improvement, then it -is- improvement. If you ''think'' it now, you'll start to ''believe'' it eventually. :3
One thing that helped me once was EasySkankins that told me; ''No ''what if's'' or ''but's'', they're the ones that keep us back.'' And the more I started thinking about, the more a realized he was spot on with that comment. Alternate scenario's to the the ones that actually occurs are often unnecessary statistics that merely clutter and confuse an already busy mind.
Another handy trick is to learn whether what you think is actually true. We sometimes blame ourselves for things that aren't necessarily our fault. Not every awkward moment is caused by us, people without social problems make those mistakes too.
The things is that you can't simply overwrite thinking patterns. You change them by following a positive mindset, and correcting negative thinking. When you find yourself thinking; ''I can't do it.'', ask yourself; ''Is that really true? Why wouldn't I be able to do it?''. Many times you'll find that you're capable of many things you might've considered extremely difficult. And if there's ever a case where you really can't do it, then it's not a problem either.
Life is short, but not -that- short. When you fail, just try again next time when you feel you've improved more. You can work at any pace you feel right in.
Believe? There is another element to this disease that I will refrain from discussing here, it underlines the reason for failed therapy and medication attempts. You can deal with the material aspect of our being, but that is not all there is. Stille waters, diepe grond, onder draai die duiwel rond.
You know I'm more and more starting to believe that SA is a part of who you are. At least in cases where it's present most of your life, like myself. I believe you can learn to overcome the symptoms, but i'm not so sure about the thing itself.
I think if I can manage to find some decent friends, I can finally kick it. I just need that confidence boost. My biggest problem, after all, is feeling that I'm obnoxious/boring/awkward/insertnegativeadjectivehere. Having a couple friends would put that to rest for the most part. After all, if I were so [insert negative adjective here], they wouldn't be friends with me.
I'll probably always struggle with being shy and doubting myself socially, but nobody's perfect.