The Beast of Bad Luck

Id probably sound crazy saying this, but from an early age ive always said im cursed, have bad luck, how ever you put it, if theirs the odds for things to go wrong or right, it will always go wrong for me. my friends use to put this to the test and it always proved nothing went right.

ive always said, it wont kill me, it enjoys me being alive so i can suffer more.

probably 20 years on, and things still have never gone right, i think my life is apsolute shit

i think my wife is pure evil , shes driven me away from my family with her cursed mental illness.

shes also seen to drive away any friendship, her hording and cluttering has driven me insain. the only thing ihave to live for is to make sure my daughter's life turns out better than me.

shes cluttered the house, spend every cent of money we have, and sits on her arse all day, wont work, wont do anything, when i get hoem from work im looking after my daughter, working 12 hours a day


im also riddled with injuries from my work, back injuries cause me to loose a lot of enjoyment from anything i enjoy doing, ahrd to ride motorbikes, it also causes me to not sleep, very rarly do i sleep now, been like this for a few years.

been having a lot of marrage counselling, this year to try and get something together, but i dont think its working, just making things worse.

after being together for over 10 years, shes finally started seeing a psyciatrist this year, which being evil has told me she isnt allowed to clean anymore.

she has hired a cleaner, 3 hours a week every tuesday, but the house is getting worse becuase she refuses to not only do anything but now stops me doing any form of cleaning..

nothing works, im constantly sick, tired, fat and as always ugly, when with this beast let me die :-(

There's a new self-help book called Act with Love by Dr. Russ Harris, it's based on Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT). It's written for couples but probably can be used by just one partner. Hopefully she will get better soon and your life won't be such a hell anymore.

http://www.amazon.com/Act-Love-Differences-Relationship-Professional/dp/1572246227/

Product Description
Popular myths about love set us up for a struggle with real life. The inconvenient truth is there's no such thing as a perfect partner, all couples fight, and feelings of love come and go like the weather. But that doesn't mean you can't have a joyful and romantic relationship. Through a simple program based on the revolutionary new mindfulness-based acceptance and commitment therapy (ACT), you can learn to handle painful thoughts and feelings more effectively and engage fully in the process of living and loving together.

With your partner or alone, ACT with Love will teach you how to:

* Let go of conflict, open up, and live fully in the present
* Use mindfulness to increase intimacy, connection, and understanding
* Resolve painful conflicts and reconcile long-standing differences
* Act on your values to build a rich and meaningful relationship

From the Publisher
In ACT with Love, therapist and medical doctor Russ Harris shows couples how developing psychological flexibility--the ability to be in the present moment with openness, awareness, and focus, and to take effective action in line with one's values--can help them build more compassionate, accepting, loving relationships.

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i dono about that, ive been suffering living with her for many years, but the last few its unbarable.

are things ment to get worse when they get help!

NatRad said:

nothing works, im constantly sick, tired, fat and as always ugly, when with this beast let me die :-(

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It's very hard to live with someone who has mental illness...especially when you want to love the person but you just can't...My dad had many mental illnesses and he always wanted to kill me (with a big chopping knife)! Although I am ugly, fat, and tired (I have severe scoliosis and sometimes I just want to break my back ), I am glad that I am still alive. I never really enjoyed my life and always found life pointless, but I knew that I can always die if I want to.
I will die at some point, so might as well see what's out there for me! (I love FOOD!) I hope your situation will get better! I once heard "luck is conserved". If you had so much bad luck back then, something great must be waiting for you in the future! Like those stories where poor guys won a big lotto.

sometimes i wonder if its all me, that i am the problem, that i cause the fights, that i see the negative when it isnt really their.

its intresting re readhign what i have written considering the latest updates....

this beast does exist