terrifying flashback

simona

Active member
During my school years (and especially in highschool) I've been verbally and emotionally bullied (by girls). By then I remember that by the end of every weekend or holiday (when I could finally feel at safe) I would have a very hard time going back to school( after a long time not seeing the bullies, my anxiety would increase).

I've been recently bullied by a coworker (i guess I should accept I'm prone to being bullied by females, for some reason). Now every time I take some days off work, I'm having again that harsh time going back to work, as if I expect to get bullied again: I have frightening flashbacks, even panic attacks. Will all these ever end?
 

TryAgain

Active member
I've never been bullied by peers. However, I can understand where you are coming from since I was verbally, emotionally, and even physically abused by my kindergarten caretaker. From then on, I'd hide and pretend I was sick in order to avoid school (as a kid). I still remember the gut wrenching feeling of fear and anxiety I felt back in the day, but I don't have panic attacks over it nor frightening flashbacks anymore. It gradually went away as I grew up.

Have you tried professional help?
 

Diend

Well-known member
I know what you feel. i was afraid to go to school due to previous trauma. at some point, i needed beer to be present. perhaps medication is needed as a short term solution. perhaps a becoming aggressive is the answer. let me know if you need someone to talk to.
 
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